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Monday, November 16, 2009
Forbidden boy crush
I had had crushes on boys before, even though I was just 13. My older sister, who was very pretty and popular, would have boys coming around and I was pretty envious of her, but more on that some other time. Starting at age 12, I was "playing house" with another sissy. We would play dress-up and cuddle and kiss each other. And when I was 13, two other boys joined us and we two sissies started giving them blowjobs.
But this was more carrying on and playing and experimenting. I didn't know what it meant to be gay. I thought we were just sissies playing around.
Then, out of the about 1,500 boys in my new school, I saw Pete. And I fell in love. With a boy. He was so pretty. I just wanted to kiss his face all over. And he had pretty lips. As luck would have it, we were on the same course track (gifted or college prep) and we ended up in many of the same classes. I would just melt when I saw him walking around the school or when we were in the classroom together. I could not stop looking at him and would actually get goosebumps. And I thought of him a lot.
Now since we were classmates, he would talk to me. He was so nice. If I was a girl, I would have pursued him definitely. I just wanted to say, "I love you, I love you, I love you" to him, but of course I could not. It was very difficult, as you can imagine.
Then there was the little thing that involved seeing him naked! At this school, we had phys-ed three days a week, two gym classes and one swim class. So I would see him naked in the locker room or shower quite often and he was just so pretty. (He would go on to be star athlete at our high school and in college.) I just wanted to eat him up after seeing his cock for the first time in that locker room, all I could do was think about it. I was giving some other guys blow jobs, as I said, but what I really wanted was to pleasure him, over and over.
This was very tough and went on for six years! It was a forbidden crush. It was especially tough because we became pretty good friends and yet I could not kiss his lips or pleasure his cock like I was doing a lot of other boys eventually. And I know he knew that I was doing that because secrets aren't kept around a school. The boys who were getting blowjobs from me and my sissy friend were blabbing. And we just known sissies as well. Yet he chose to remain a good friend.
The other thing that was tough was the fact that prettiest girls in school would flock to him. He always had a pretty, popular girl to go steady with. It hurt inside, because I wanted to be that girl so badly and of course I could never be.
I had other crushes on boys, college guys and even older men, but that was the first and most memorable. And I still think about him sometime and pull out the high school yearbook and look at his picture. Don't know what became of him though.
Anyone else have anything thoughts to share about forbidden crushes on boys.