New Blog: My Life as a Sissy Wife

Don't forget to check out my other blog where I plan to talk about about how I actually ended up being a sissy wife to a dominant woman! Some of you who look in here may be in the same situation! It's in my blog list but the address is:

About this blog: Do you like to read about my thoughts and experiences and those of the followers, or would you rather it be more X-rated like many other blogs?

Who were you with for your first kiss?

You must be a sissy since you view this blog. So just how little is your little sissy clitty?

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Gay or straight or what?

Love T-girl and GG girlfriend. Lovely!
Someone asked me if I was gay or straight. I said yes? What I mean is both. Or neither. For a long time I was just darn confused. If you are reading this, you probably grew up the same way.

I, of course, grew up being a sissy boy. Played around with other sissy boys. Then played around with regular boys who liked sissies. When I became a teenager, I was also attracted to girls. But because I was a sissy, they all wanted to be my "close friend," but of course they did not want to date me because I was a sissy. Do you know that feeling?

This went on through college and a bit afterwards. I knew lots of girls in college, even hot cheerleaders and dance team girls, but they wanted to be my "close friend." I mean I was so close with some of these girls that I would pleasure them with my tongue -- with no reciprocation -- even as they had boyfriends. What was funny was one girl kept getting calls from her boyfriend while I was between her legs pleasuring her. But she treated me like a girlfriend. I would do things with these girls, but they were not "dates."

Meanwhile, I had some guy friends that I would pleasure too. And it was without reciprocation with them too. Do you see a pattern here?

It was easy to meet people like me in college because at my big university there were several LGBT groups. But, and you may have noticed this too, most of the hot guys are not looking for a T-girl. The great majority are looking for other hot guys, just like you are.

So I graduated and moved away to take a job. Suddenly my lifeline was not there. So I started going to gay bars in my new town. I didn't go in wearing a dress,  but maybe a pair of short shorts and a tank top. Shaved smooth, smelling girlie. Just like I mentioned that I like to wear still today. I got the impression that I was not welcome there.

This is so nice!
Rarely saw another T-girl in those bars. Just maybe twice. The guys I came across weren't looking for T-girls. Especially relationships with T-girls. They also hurled some insults my way. And I got to see what the gay lifestyle was like and I didn't really want to go there. Funny, I wanted to be a normal girl just like the real girls. What an impossible dream that was!

So anyway I met this women at the place I worked. She liked my sissiness and softness. She actually wanted to go out with me on a real date. She had just come off a relationship where she was abused and I think she was done with "real men." She vowed that that would never happen again. But she was strong-willed, assertive and dominant. I can't believe a guy took advantage of her! And I liked that very much.

So I came to realize that more than anything else I was just plain submissive. Gay. Straight. Both. But definitely submissive. I had, after all, always been that way.

So we ended up getting married. (No, I did not wear a wedding gown. But I wish I had!) I am still a sissy and her girlfriend. Our sex life mostly consists of me giving her lots and lots of oral pleasure, of course, without reciprocation! I do all the housework for her so she can use her time for leisure. She likes to spank and paddle my sissy behind!

I bet a lot of sissies like us end up with dominant women instead of men. Because, like I said, the hot gay guys are looking for other hot gay guys. There are probably more women out there who are happy with a relationship with a T-girl, as opposed to men who just want a BJ but no relationship.

But I still fantasize about men. I fantasize about a lot things: lezzies and masochism as well. But I have actual been loyal to my dominant wife because I probably have been pretty lucky compared to other T-girls. And I like being a T-girl lezzie like the girls in the pictures I posted.

I still always wish that I was a girl!

So what is your situation?

Monday, July 26, 2010

Sister act?

Were you influenced by an older sister? I have to believe I was. Two of them. And add to that a father who had nothing to do with me.

My one sister is seven years older than me. So when I turned 12 or so and really began to form into the person that I am today, she was well into her teens. So I saw her develop right before my eyes and saw what she was wearing and how she and my mom put on their neat underwear and makeup.

And boys would come around to pick her up and take her out on dates and for who knows what else.  But since I was only 6 when she was 13 maybe I did not really get us much influence from my oldest sister as I had thought. Probably did through osmosis though!

But she got married right out of high school and was gone out of the house. I was still only 13 or so. Now, I also have a sister who is just a year older than me. That is where the real influence came from. Like I said, my father had no time for me so I spent time with my mother and especially the sister who is just a year older than me.

We became rivals, of course, but I also was envious of her. It would have been natural to be envious of a sister because they were smart or if they were good at sports or maybe a music instrument. But I was envious of her because she was very pretty and very popular in school. Boys were always showering attention on her. The cutest boys! The most popular and prettiest girls in school were also her best friends. She was always a home room or class officer or an officer in a school club. Then there was me. I was always known throughout school as her "little brother"!

I should have been bitter over that, but I don't ever remember being that way. I just wanted to be like her so much. Not like some great athlete in our school. I wanted to be like my sister. Like a girl. I loved how she got to wear such great clothes and wear bikinis to the pool. And she was so smooth and pretty and always smelled to good. That's what I wanted. I didn't want to be a football player or anything like that. That's for sure!

And when she turned 16 or so and I was still 15, there were always boys coming around to see her. The most popular boys in school. And as I have written previously, I was already "playing house" with my sissy friend and servicing a couple of boys who wanted BJs from us sissies. So I was quite jealous that certain hot boys were going out with my sister!

I am a firm believer that gays and lesbians and T-girls too are born that way, but I also have to think that certain crossroads in life are there to be taken and I have to believe that my envy of my sister pushed me further down the path of being a T-girl.

Did it work out that way for any of you too?

Monday, July 19, 2010

Are you into gay porn?

The other day I put it in a DVD featuring gay porn. I did not buy it but it came free with a magazine of subscription.It had been laying around for some time.  I think it was Men or Unzipped, which are not published anymore.

Anyway, I have to admit that besides loving all of the beautiful cocks, it did not do much for me. I think it was because the men in all of the scenes were on equal footing. They were pretty much twins. For my taste, someone has to be submissive because I have always been submissive -- to guys and gals. If I were directing that scene at right, I would be on my knees between the two men as a sissy T-girl pleasuring both of them!

Or at the very least, one of the men would have been a bear with a big cock and the other a submissive twink with a little cock who must pleasure his dominant man!

I watch hetero scenes and, of course, fantasize that I am the girl, but I mostly like tranny movies because the tranny is the performer I can most identify with. I mean, who among you would not want to be that girl in the other picture! She is about to pleasure that gorgeous man with her mouth and ass. And even better, her little sissy clitty is totally limp while she is doing it!

I definitely do not like it when the T-girl does the guy. It can be pretty hot when the girl is getting her tiny clitty sucked a little but it has to be totally sissy limp. But a T-girl with a big boner doing a guy in the ass is a total turnoff  for me. What do you think about that? I personally do not like big cocks on T-girls, nor do I like boners.

And the T-girl performer should never, ever, be allowed to cum. Sex should be strictly for her man's pleasure! And she should get her pleasure only by satisfy him. She should massage him and kiss him and suck him until he is hard. She should take him up the ass and she should take his load in her mouth. And then cuddle him. Period! Don't you agree? That, to me, is the hottest scene.

Do you agree with me on any this?

Thursday, July 15, 2010

What do you wear in public?

As I have written somewhere here before, I am not your classic case of a cross-dresser. Sure I like to put on a wig and makeup once in a while, especially for a photo session. But I don't go out in public like that. Never really had a desire to do so. Some cross-dressers absolutely must do that, but not me.

I have always just been plain girlie and have done girlie things like shave my body, paint my nails, always smell sweet -- and think about boys and men and just being submissive to everyone, even the girls. You can get away with a lot of things in public, but not if you are wearing a wig, lots of makeup, and a dress and 4-inch heals. That really is not accepted, so I don't go there.

But I have always dressed in public like the girls pictured here. (That sure looks like Cindy Crawford at right above, doesn't it ! And I know that is Miley Cyrus at right.) I will wear short shorts like they have on and a tank top. Mostly I will wear flip-flops, unless I am driving, then to be safe I will wear tennis shoes like Miley has on.

Ninety-nine percent of the time, I get no comments whatsoever about how I look. When I was in high school I got a lot more comments, especially from the bully boys who just had to be mean. But in college and after, the remarks pretty much dried up. About the only time I get a nasty remark is when I walk by a group of men who just have to act goofy and they have to call me a faggot or a cunt or something like that.

I do get a lot more looks than comments. Most of the second looks come from teenage girls. Men don't give you a second look because then that might give them doubts about their sexuality! Several times, some teen girls together have pointed at me and giggled and I have come to expect that. It didn't help that one time they were in the same aisle in a store as me. They were buying tampons and I was looking through the sanitary napkins!

But how do you dress in public? Like the girls pictured here and like I do? Please comment!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Another stunning athlete

Here is another one of my favorite athletes: the great USA softball player Jennie Finch. She is shown in her uniform in the above photos and stunningly dressed below that. I think I saw on the Web that she is 6 feet and 1 inch tall. Wow! She could dominate me any day! And just look at those long sexy legs! Wouldn't you just love to have legs like that!

I was thinking the other day that I really don't know that many male athletes. I follow my hometown teams,  but besides that I don't know that many guy athletes besides the usual superstars like Kobe, Lebron, Jeter, etc.

I really enjoy watching the girls play though, whether it is tennis or softball or golf. Or those stunning girls in the Olympics that take part in volleyball, swimming, diving and track.

I do like to attend college games, but I am more likely interested in the cheerleaders and the dance teams as I have always been. I can still remember when I was in junior high how much I looked up to and envied the senior high school cheerleaders. I wanted so much to be like them.

Throughout your life as a sissy T-girl, what derogatory name have you been called the most?

Why do your wear bras? Or not?

Ever pilfer panties from a girl's drawer, clothesline or laundry, etc?,

How do you wear your pantyhose?

As a young sissy, did you look at naked men in locker rooms?

Did you ever raid a clothesline for bras or panties?

Do you hate getting erections?

Do you want to have your penis removed?

Do you take female hormones to be more girlie?

What is your mental state as a T-girl who wishes they were a girl?

Do you tuck away your sissy clitty to pretend you are a girl?

Do you wear a bra on a daily basis?

As a t-girl, what do you shave? (Pick closest choice)

What is your favorite lingerie?

You have always wanted one, but what would you call it?

Did you have a crush on a boy when you were in high school?

When you see a gorgeous girl, do you want to:

At this exact second, what are you wearing?

Do you use feminine protection?

Who was the first female you envied and wanted to be like?

Growing up, did you place dress-up with a sissy friend?

Did you play with dolls like Barbie and Tammy as a young sissy?