|Did you feel guilty when you dressed|
up like this as teen?
Well that is how I felt for awhile too! Some of the time, anyway. Anyone else feel that way?
My mother was a devout Catholic. Altar lady and everything. At about the same time I was starting to dress like a girl and really starting to want to be a girl, and "playing house" with my sissy friends, and starting to be attracted to boys ... well, my mother also made me become an altar boy!
At first, I did not feel guilty because I did not feel like or know that I was doing anything wrong. But I think it was the sneaking around we sissies had to do to dress up and "play house" that started me to thinking that what we were doing was not right. And thus the guilty feelings.
On the other hand, I was just being me. I was a sissy who did girlie things, but I also liked to do things like be an altar boy and boy scout. Very confusing time as you probably remember!
When I started giving blowjobs, though, I knew that that was not right. I knew that regular boys and even regular girls my age did not do stuff like that. Only the slutty girls did ... and the sissies.
But then again, that was how I felt I needed to be, feeling guilty or not.