New Blog: My Life as a Sissy Wife

Don't forget to check out my other blog where I plan to talk about about how I actually ended up being a sissy wife to a dominant woman! Some of you who look in here may be in the same situation! It's in my blog list but the address is:

About this blog: Do you like to read about my thoughts and experiences and those of the followers, or would you rather it be more X-rated like many other blogs?

Who were you with for your first kiss?

You must be a sissy since you view this blog. So just how little is your little sissy clitty?

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Called a fag for the way I carried my books!

How sissies like me
carry books!
How guys carry books!
With another school year starting, I was thinking back to my junior and senior high school days. 

I drove by our local high school the other day and the second thing you notice -- after some of the hot girls we sissies always wished we could be -- is how the girls and guys carry their books: The guys carry them at their side and the girls hug them against their chest. 

OK, to be more accurate the girls and the sissies hug their books against their chest. That is how I carried my books, along with my fellow sissies during my time in school.
This is how I would
have looked like
walking down the all
in high school!

Of course -- as you know if you carried your books like a girl -- that was just another reason for the mean kids to hurl verbal abuse at you and call you a pussy and a faggot. I lost count of how many times I walked by the football players carrying my books like a girl and they called me names.

Then at some point, I bought a book bag like the girl at right has, and carried it just like in the photo. I used it mostly to carry my notebooks and other papers because it was not really strong enough to put more than one book inside of it. Then, you guessed it, the mean kids called me a faggot because I was carrying a "purse."

Did anyone else run into this annoying trouble because of the way you carried your books in school?

Monday, August 26, 2013

I envy my pretty niece so much!

My niece looks like this!
And I am so envious of her!

And, oh yes, she dresses just
like this all the time, too!
I have written about how I have two older sisters who I wanted to be like as I grew up a sissy. Especially the one who is just a year older than me and who is very pretty and was one of the most popular girls in school.

Well, I also have a younger brother. He is actually a lot younger than me, by eight years. He did not turn out like me! He seems to be pretty well-adjusted! He did go through a divorce, but his second wife is awesome!

Anyway, he has two teen-aged kids, a boy and a girl. The reason I posted the photo of the pretty girl above is that my niece looks just like that girl! Now, I am not some pervert that wants to take advantage of a young girl, now 17. As a sissy, I have always want to be like those girls, not to have sex with them! (By the way, my nephew shows signs that he is a sissy!)

But I have to say that I am so envious of my niece! And I am so frustrated that I could not have been dealt those genes, since they obviously have existed in our family line. Like I said, my sister looked like that in high school too.

I should add here that my aunt recently let me scan some old family photos and some were of my mother when she was a teen. Except for the much more conservative clothing she wore growing up, it was evident that she also was a real beauty. She passed those genes down to my sister. But not me! (If you were here right now, you would be seeing a really sad expression on my face!)

But I watched my niece growing up and you could just tell that she was going to be a beauty like the girl in the photo. I had fun watching her -- and also other pretty young girls -- but it sort of makes me sad that I did not grow up like that. If your are reading this, then you are a sissy T-girl who probably feels the same way!

But my niece -- nephew too -- just love me so much. She always gives me a big hug and she is so sweet. But I have to say that I just envy her so much!

Anyone else have a similar story to tell?

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Do you remember your very first time?

Do you remember the first time you ever sucked a cock! It was some time ago for me as I was probably 13! I am going to try to recall most of the wonderful event!

My sissy friend Timmy and I had started playing dress-up at an attic apartment at his house, using clothes from my sister that I brought and lingerie from mostly his mother that was at his house. This went on for a while and as I have written before we would prance around as girls and we would cuddle and kiss each other.

Well, these two boys started to join us, only they had no desire to dress up and be girls. They did, however, get naked for us. And, naturally, we began to kiss and cuddle with them.

I seem to remember that the first time I sucked a guy I was just playing around with him. He either was nakie or had his undies off for sure. I do not remember exactly what I was wearing but I am sure it was a short dress or lingerie because that is how we sissies usually were attired.
I came across this photo some time 
ago, but was saving it for this post!
This guy looks a lot like
the first guy I ever sucked!
His face, his body and his cock!

We were just sort of tickling and pinching either other, you know, playful stuff. I remember stopping and looking him in the eyes and kissing him on the lips. I had kissed Timmy on the lips, but this was the first real guy I had ever kissed.

Then I dropped to my knees and my face was right in front of his cock. I can still picture his cock in my mind after all these years. I know I nestled may face against it, kissed it and started sucking it. 

I cannot remember how long I did it or what he was doing except for standing there. But I do know for sure that when he came that it was in my mouth and I do know that I swallowed his load, probably because I did not know what else to do with it! I cannot give you "juicy" details about that -- how much cum, how it tasted -- because I just can't. I just know that I swallowed it.

I do not remember how I handled myself in that awkward moment after I stood up, whether we said anything to each other or laughed or what. I remember that Timmy was sucking a guy off in the same room at the same time. 

I also cannot recall whether I felt any guilt or shame about what I had just done. I can't remember how I felt when I went home and over the following days after giving that first blowjob. It was just too long ago.

But this is a fact: Probably the next week I was doing it again, so obviously I had the yearning to suck cock and to be with boys! And those two boys who joined us for those first times, well, Timmy and I actually pleasured them all through junior and senior high school! I mostly sucked my original guy, but we did switch off occasionally. 

I may have mentioned before that it was supposed to be a secret among the four of us, but the secret got out and there would be other guys who came around for after-school and Saturday morning blowjobs.

There were a lot of tough things about growing up being a sissy -- the abuse, the confusion in your head, etc. -- but the times in that attic apartment during those six junior and senior high school years was definitely not one of them. 

OK, so do you remember the first time you gave a guy a blowjob? Like me, maybe you cannot recall all the details, but how old were you and who was it and where was it?

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Funny thing about searching for "sissy"

I admit I search for "sissy" on Google a lot because I like to see what is going on out their with fellow sissies and T-girls.

 I like to read their stories and make comments just as much as I like other sissies to read MY stories and make comments here.

But what is funny is what you get for results when 
you Google "sissy." I am sure you have come 
across the examples below just like I have a lot!

Of course, you get a sissy in a pink dress!
And a lot of Sissy Spacek!
And there is Sissy the cat, of course!

Monday, August 19, 2013

Telling a guy "I love you!"

I've been spending a lot of time doing this and not much time on the computer!
I'm still here! I thought maybe one or two people might be wondering! It's just that in the summertime I do not spend a lot of time in the house on the computer. I like to lay out by my pool or on a float like above and there is also endless time spent gardening, watering flowers, and taking care of the yard and house. Not to mention that I also like to go summer festivals when I can. Thus I am not in the house much unless it storms!

Anyway, something popped into my head -- as usual -- and I was thinking, I never really told a guy "I love you." I wanted to several times, but I never did.

Now, in junior and senior high school and in college I would tell guys "I really love your cock" or "I really love sucking your cock." If it was a guy I spent a little more time with, I would say "I really love being with you." But never just "I love you." You probably know what I mean when I say that there is a difference.

I'm not really sure why that is. I loved being with those guys, but I think there was that taboo-ness of being in the gay lifestyle when I was a teen that scared me. Maybe I did not know how gay I was because I was also friends with girls and very confused about it all. There was a time when I wanted to be with girls, but I wanted to be a girl. Then I wanted to be with guys and be their girl. You know how that worked if you are reading this!

And boys, even sissies, did not go around telling guys "I love you" unless you really knew what the response was going to be. You could get beat up over something like that!

There was this one boy though that I knew all through school. And I have mentioned him in a post probably long ago. I met him in 7th grade when we were around 13. That's about the same time I really realized how much I wanted to be a girl and how attracted I was to boys. And also how I was infatuated by adult men as well!

But I developed the biggest crush on this boy. When I would see him at school I would just melt. Just like a silly schoolgirl. And we also ended up in many of the same classes for the six years of junior and senior high school because we were both in the college prep course.

That would include our phys ed classes, so for those six years I would get to see him naked in the shower and locker room at school. He was just so athletic and beautiful! I just wanted to eat him up!
I dreamed of being with my teen crush like this so
I could tell him "I love you!"

I would dream of us together naked in bed, holding and caressing and kissing him, me sucking his beautiful cock until I gave him great pleasure, and then just cuddling naked with him again and kissing him and caressing him all night long. And I would be telling him "I love you" over and over and over! I had that dream so many times! Oh, and imagine how I felt when I would see him in school the very next day!

He played sports and so I would sit with the girls and the other sissies in the cheering section and watch him play. I was always so envious when I saw him talking to a cheerleader or some other real girl. I mean, I wanted to be his girlfriend! So I hated it when he was with other girls!

I don't know if you ever went through something like that, but it was hard. We were actually very good friends, but it was limited at school. He was always very nice to me, which somehow made things harder. There was that line that would never be crossed and I was too scared to even try.

So, like the other sissies, I would give guys blowjobs and I really "loved" them and doing that for them, but even with my teen crush I never once told a guy that "I love you."

OK, what about you? Do you have a story to tell like this?

Throughout your life as a sissy T-girl, what derogatory name have you been called the most?

Why do your wear bras? Or not?

Ever pilfer panties from a girl's drawer, clothesline or laundry, etc?,

How do you wear your pantyhose?

As a young sissy, did you look at naked men in locker rooms?

Did you ever raid a clothesline for bras or panties?

Do you hate getting erections?

Do you want to have your penis removed?

Do you take female hormones to be more girlie?

What is your mental state as a T-girl who wishes they were a girl?

Do you tuck away your sissy clitty to pretend you are a girl?

Do you wear a bra on a daily basis?

As a t-girl, what do you shave? (Pick closest choice)

What is your favorite lingerie?

You have always wanted one, but what would you call it?

Did you have a crush on a boy when you were in high school?

When you see a gorgeous girl, do you want to:

At this exact second, what are you wearing?

Do you use feminine protection?

Who was the first female you envied and wanted to be like?

Growing up, did you place dress-up with a sissy friend?

Did you play with dolls like Barbie and Tammy as a young sissy?