Guys Who Wish They Were Girls

Outed at the drugstore!

2012-01-25T15:10:00.004-05:00

Ever go to the drugstore and you are in the checkout line to pay for your maxipads or tampons and the price doesn't ring up properly or not at all?

Then the flustered clerk yells out to her co-worker: "Hey Sally, how much are these maxipads?" And she does it really loud so everyone can hear her, especially the men standing next to you in the checkout line!

I have been in situations like that! Yes, with maxipads or panties or some other item of women's clothing.

So, I was at a drugstore the other day and was buying some nail polish. Two bottles actually. One did not have the UPC code so it could not be rung up. The clerk asked me if I knew how much it cost. I said a dollar ninety-nine. She was about to accept that because that's how much the other bottle was even though they were different brands.

I painted my toenails with glittery polish!

But a second later she sees another clerk and of course she has to yell across the store: "Hey Sally (or something), how much is Xbrand nail polish?" Of course, the men in line got to know that I was buying nail polish and just like in the other similar incidents they gave me funny looks!

I bet you have been in situations like that!

Anyway, I thought I would try some glittery silver nail polish for my toes and I also purchased some bright green polish so I would have more than reddish colors. I'm wearing the glittery polish today and I just love it. I normally wear clear polish on my fingernails unless I am off work for an extended period. But I love putting on my nail polish just like the girls pictured above! Just another way that those of us who wish we were girls can express ourselves!

Getting back to the bathroom issue!

2012-01-23T14:27:00.000-05:00

My problem with going into a public bathroom in the warmer months is that I wear short shorts like the T-girls pictured here.

If I were wearing a dress, I definitely would also be wearing a wig and have on makeup. Thus I would probably try to use the ladies room! But when I wear short shorts, I am in sissy mode as compared to crossdresser mode, if you know what I mean. I am obviously a male being a sissy, so there is no way you can use the ladies room!

So, that leaves either the family restroom or unisex bathrooms, which I seek out first, but are often not an option. So then you must resort to going into the men's room dressed like the girls pictured here, only without the wig.

Does anyone else do that?

Now, you cannot go up to a urinal and stand there in your short shorts and girlie tank top and girlie sandals and shaved legs showing, can you!

So what I do is move in quickly and don't make eye contact with anyone but head directly to a toilet stall! I do my business and if possible quickly wash and dry my hands. And if that is not possible, I always carry hand wipes with me in my purse.

So, going to the bathroom is not only an adventure when you are crossdressed, but also when you are in sissy mode. I have stated before that I for the most part do not go around in a dress and wig, but I wear other women's clothing that I can get away with. That's pretty much everything except dresses and skirts. I call that being in sissy mode or girlie mode.

And that still creates a problem when you have to tinkle!

Making out with the real boys!

2012-01-23T01:14:00.001-05:00

My sissy friend and I played like these girls!

When I saw this photo, it reminded me of something that took place a bunch of times with my sissy friend Timmy and me and some of the boys we would "play house" with in junior and senior high school.

Timmy and I did not go around wearing skirts like the girls in the photo, but we did wear girlie shorts and tank tops, so we did look like these girls as far as showing our sissy shaved legs and the tank tops.

But we did get together with the boys a bunch of times to make out. Sometimes Timmy's older brother would get us some beer -- for which we owed him big time -- or we would gather up some -- read: pilfer -- from our parents' refrigerators.

You know, the first people I kissed besides my mom and aunts were Timmy and these boys. Actually, they were the first people I kissed on the lips and French kissed! I did not kiss an actual girl until I was in college and that was only on the occasions of before or after I gave them oral pleasure.

But Timmy and I would kiss these boys in back yards and if the coast was very clear and maybe the beer made us brave enough, the boys would get blowjobs from us as well!

Did anyone else carry on like this?

Sports figures I would like to be (and have)!

2012-01-19T14:40:00.001-05:00

I'd pay to see -- and also be! -- any one of these sports figures!

So I was listening to Internet radio and the hosts were asking callers to call in and tell them what sports figures that they never had gotten to see that they would like to see right now?

So people were calling in and saying Babe Ruth, Jim Brown, Jim Thorpe, etc. -- all the big noted sports heroes. Then someone called in and said Billy Jean King. So I got to thinking, who would I like to see right now?

Well, I wouldn't care to see any of the football or baseball stars they mentioned, maybe some female figure skaters or female tennis players. I would like to see just about any of the girls who were in the Sports Illustrated swimsuit editions!

They count as sports figures! They were in Sports Illustrated, after all, and they were wearing swimsuits. Close to nakie sometimes, but they were wearing swimsuits even if it was the top or bottom at separate times!

And if I had to pick one of them to see, especially in their prime, it would be Christie Brinkley. Remember her in the National Lampoon's Vacation movie! I have not only admired her, I have envied her and wanted to be just like her!

I fit behind this little patch of material!

2012-01-18T15:22:00.001-05:00

Yesterday I was going through my panty drawer and I found a thong panty like the one pictured at right.

I guess the thing was so small that it got lost in the drawer! Really not a lot of material in the front and none in the back as you can see. And I thought there was no way in the world that I was going to fit in that tiny thing!

Well, as proof that I possess a sissy clitty and not something that a man would have -- something a lot closer to a pussy than not -- I fit into that tiny triangle very easily. Nothing, not even my little sissy peanuts, was hanging out at all.

I actually have a lot of thongs, but I found only one other one with so little material as the one I put on yesterday! But a thong like this is so appropriate for a sissy T-girl! Don't you think? When clothed at all, a sissy T-girl should dress as scantily as possible! Don't you agree?

Love those polka dot panties!

2012-01-18T13:43:00.000-05:00

I have written before about how much I love polka dot panties! I was thinking about them the other day because I had to toss out one of my favorite pairs because they got holes in them. Well you can't wear panties with holes them!

So I have to get to the store for some more polka dot panties! I'm sure Wal-Mart and Target would have them.

But I came across this photo of Amy -- one of the all-time most beautiful ladyboys and definitely one who I would like to be -- wearing a pair of polka dot panties!

A lovely sissy cheerleader!

2012-01-17T03:13:00.001-05:00

From the Coming Gynarchy blog--thanks Victoria!

I was just sorting through some downloads and I don't know where I found this photo and caption but what a delightful sissy cheerleader!

What a pretty little thing! I bet the basketball players -- especially the black boys --just love her up!

I wish I could have gone through high school as a sissy cheerleader! Of course, certain things would be expected of you. Like always giving blow jobs so the real boys would not constantly be beating the crap out of you. But I would take that deal! A fair sissy trade-off!

I actually gave blow jobs in high school so that the real boys would be my friends. Well not really be my friends but let me hang around them. I did get harassed a lot, but I think the blow jobs kept me from getting beat up because some of the recipients put the word out to lay off of me -- or else!

I wish I had little titties in high school!

2012-01-16T02:49:00.001-05:00

I wish we had the Internet back when I was in high school. I know I certainly would have ordered female hormones from an overseas web site in an effort to have little titties like the girl at right.

Could you just imagine being a sissy in high school and looking like that! It certainly would have made your time in the locker room when you had phys ed class very very interesting so say the least!

I know one thing though: That's how my arms looked in school! I was one of the sissies in phys ed class who could not climb the rope or do push-ups or pull-ups and was ridiculed by the real boys. Besides calling me a sissy, they would tell me to go stand with the girls.

But it was true. My arms were skinny like the girl above and I never did climb that rope and I never could do more than a few push-ups and never more than one pull-up! Phys ed class was mostly not a nice time for me. Add to that the fact that I would be pick last or close to it when teams were made. I should have been with the girls like the mean boys told me.

But it would have been nice consolation to have had little titties while in high school, that's for sure!

I would never not match!

2012-01-14T02:53:00.000-05:00

What is up with this girl at right! Why would you ever not wear matching bra and panties!

Surely she has white panties or a pink bra! I absolutely always have to match! In fact, I will pick up two or three matching panties for each bra that I have just in case the panties are in the wash and that way I will have a spare that matches.

No, I have to dress like the girl at left! That is a pretty matching set! I love polka dot undies! I was sad because the other day I had to throw out a pair of polka dot panties because they had holes in them. What can I say! They were among my favorites, so I wore them a lot!

Don't you just hate men's rooms!

2012-01-13T02:54:00.000-05:00

Do you know how much I hate to pee in a men's room: I really, really, really, really, really hate to pee in a men's room!

I just detest ever having to stand at those urinals! And I do that only when the toilet stalls are filthy, which they often are. Especially when you are traveling and have to go at a rest stop or restaurant or convenience store. Most of the time I will squat over a toilet to tinkle unless it is really filthy and I must give in and stand at a urinal.

The best thing is to find a family bathroom and sneak into that even though you are not bringing a kid in with you!

I have always peed like these girls pictured. That's how you did it with your mother and two older sisters in the house and a father who was not around the house much. I was not allowed to lift the seat up because the girls would always say that I would leave it up, so I was told to just not ever put it up and sit down to pee! I am not kidding! I was actually told that I should be sitting down to pee!

But that came natural to me! It just became automatic. And I have continued to sit down to pee like a good sissy!

Over a million page views!

2012-01-12T02:48:00.000-05:00

Wow I just noticed that! In fact, it's more than 900 over a million page views! That's an awful lot of hits! All I know is that a million of anything is a lot! Well, except for sports and show biz salaries where it's just chump change!

But thanks to everyone who has been looking in here and leaving comments! I hope you will keep participating!

Russian T-girls: Real or fake?

2012-01-10T11:38:00.000-05:00

Actual T-girl or Photoshoped?

Have you seen those so-called Russian T-girls around the Web? I have heard that they are fakes, but I don't really know for sure. Anyone who looks in here know about that?

Take the girl at right: You can see her sissy clitty under her pretty dress, which I adore by the way! And those perfect legs! Wow!

Now if you look at her feet, you can tell that she has a T-girl's feet in my opinion. Somewhat larger than a real girl's. For a girl this size I believe her feet would be smaller.

Thus, I conclude she is a T-girl! Well, actually I still am not 100 percent sure! What do you think?

I am going to try to find some of those pics that are obviously fake.

Can't decide which girl I'd like to be!

2012-01-08T23:58:00.000-05:00

Don't you just love these gorgeous ladyboys! I'm guessing they dance at a club in Thailand and perform other duties there as well!

But they are all so gorgeous I bet I could stand being any one of them! So I was thinking -- which one? Very difficult to decide! But I think I would want to be the girl who is the second from the left!

Oh but wait! I'd want to be the girl in the middle! Or the second from the right! Oh heck, anyone one them!

Obeying the dress code!

2012-01-04T15:21:00.000-05:00

2 sissies obeying the dress code!

Wouldn't it have been great in school that when they instituted a dress code and made wearing a shirt and tie mandatory, that you got away with it when you turned up like this with you and your fellow sissy in a shirt and tie!

That's because that dress code said only that "male students must wear a shirt and tie" and it did not address where sissies put their bottoms!

And some LGBT attorney threatened to sue the school district if it deviated from the dress code which it had devised and voted on and passed.

So you and your fellow sissies were quite in line with the dress code when you wore your skirts and knee socks to school!

But perhaps the sissy girl on the right would get scolded for having her skirt too high above the knee! And that would have been me, I am sure!

Ladyboys I wish I could be!

2012-01-03T01:28:00.000-05:00

I'd like to be either one of these pretty Asian girls!

Look at those bodies! Too bad the girl on the right was wearing jeans! She seems to be the prettier of the two, if that is possible!

But the girl on the left is showing off her body and holy cow, look at those legs! I bet men love to feel her up and a whole lot more!

I love Asian ladyboys so much! Some of them are just so pretty and feminine and tiny and meek and desirable and well, everything that I aspired to be!

But another reason I reposted this photo was because I found it funny! Look at the creeper on the motorbike! I bet he was about to smack the pretty girl on the left on her pretty little sexy ass!

What is your favorite piece of lingerie?

2011-12-30T12:24:00.004-05:00

I have been wearing lingerie since I was in grade school and started sneaking my sister's panties and even getting into the storage box that held my mother's wedding lingerie!

I have a large collection of bras and I love them but until recently I never had anything to put in the cups! Well, except for falsies! I probably need to wear a bra now, but you really can't do that on an everyday basis in public without being noticed. You have to stay away from those tight sweaters in public! What I do is wear my bras under a big sweatshirt!

I have also always loved garter belts and stockings! They are great for wearing around the house with nothing else on but really not practical to wear under your clothes. A nice flowing dress is what you need to wear over your garter belt and stockings! But a lot of us just don't go out in public in dresses like that. Still, I love to do my housework wearing a garter belt, stockings, bra and heels!

Now, pantyhose are nice to wear under your clothes and maybe wear a camisole instead of a bra with your panties. That is what I wear to work, especially in the winter time when those pantyhose can give you that extra warmth on a frigid day!

They are not really sleepwear, but I love to put on a silky chemise to sleep in or wear around the house! And usually I have a matching silky robe to wear over it or separately.

But my favorite? Gotta be panties! I mean, that's what I started with! Borrowing my sister's panties and panties were the first items that I bought for myself. And I wore panties under my clothes to school starting in 7th grade. Not on phys ed days though -- that would have been a bad idea and would have gotten you beat up!

I wear those other items that I mentioned and I love them! But I am in panties pretty much 24/7! And the word PANTIES pretty much says SISSY, doesn't it. When someone is labeled a sissy, you know for sure that they are wearing panties! I am certain that the other sissies that I knew going through school were panty wearers! I would have bet anything on that!

What is your favorite lingerie item? Please post your comment here or click on the poll that I set up.

I think I could live like this!

2011-12-29T14:05:00.000-05:00

I know it would be a big sacrifice, but I probably could go through life with breasts like these girls have!

Do you think you could make a sacrifice like that?

Think about it:

You would be top heavy!

You might have trouble finding a bra that big!

You would bump into things with your chest!

You couldn't sleep on your stomach!

Men -- and women -- would stare at your chest all the time and you would get lots of comments!

Those same men and women would want to lick and suck your titties and nipples all the time! Imagine all the time you would have to waste having men and women sucking on your titties all the time!

Of course you know I am being silly with you! Of course you know that I would give anything to have titties like these girls! I certainly would put up with everything that I mentioned, especially the part about men and women wanting to suck and lick and kiss and devour and just nestle in my titties all the time!

Living as a female's wife?

2011-12-27T16:19:00.000-05:00

Borrowed from a favorite blog -- Femulate

I was wondering if anyone knows of any blogs that addresses the lifestyle where a T-girl is married to a female but is the actual woman of the house on a 24/7 basis?

Where the T-girl is submissive and obeys the real female?

Where the T-girl's main job is the make the real female's life easier?

Where the T-girl's main thought is to give oral pleasure to the real female without any yearning for reciprocation?

This is such a wonderful way to live! And I was wondering if anyone knows of any such blogs or websites, could you please post the links here!

Smaller than a real girl!

2011-12-26T07:06:00.001-05:00

I had to laugh at his photo! Why? Well if you look closely you can see this girl's pussy lips hanging down between her legs!

So? I swear that if I struck the same pose -- a view from behind -- my sissy clitty would not hang down that far!

I have seen other photos and even posted a few here where the girl's pussy lips and ever her clitoris protruded farther that my little sissy clitty! It is pretty humbling to see stuff like that!

But when you have a 1-inch sissy clitty, that is going to happen! Would I change anything about that? No way! My little sissy thing suits me! The only thing that I would want to change is to have pussy lips and a real clitoris like the girl above instead of that unwanted sissy clitty that I was born with and have had to live with!

Cheering for cheerleaders!

2011-12-13T12:25:00.002-05:00

I have always wanted to be a cheerleader! Starting when I was about 12 going to my senior high schools games. I thought those those senior high girls, who would have been 16 to 18 years, were just so gorgeous and they looked so mature compared to me and the girls in my grade!

I envied them so much! Their short skirts and pretty sweaters with the school logo. The way everyone was watching them and the attention they got, especially from the cute boys. I would always go to the games and sit in front of the cheerleaders, watching their every move and not really much of the football game. I was not really into football, as you probably know. I will watch games today, my home teams anyway, but more like a female would be watching.

Besides the cheerleaders my high school had a nationally-renowned dance team. And these girls were even hotter than the cheerleaders. Most of them were leggy girls and the highlight of their routine was when they joined arms and kicked like the Rockettes.

When I made it to the senior high school, many of these cheerleaders and dancers were my friends, some very close friends. Of course, they would not date me because I was a sissy but they did spend a lot of time with me as I am sure I have written about before and I really valued that.

But I envied girls like this so much. It was depressing to be missing out on being like that. Or just being a pretty girl in general, of course.

Anyway, I found these photos of these very cute ladyboy cheerleaders that I just really enjoy! Wouldn't you just love to be them!

Relationships with women!

2011-12-08T13:22:00.000-05:00

This would be me! Definitely not a threat!

So Joy wrote a comment about her relationships with women as an adult and I am intrigued by that! (See the ballet post below!)

I definitely have many more female friends than male friends. I don't identify with men and the manly things that they do like hunting and golfing and drinking and going to football games and talking about and working on their cars or remodeling their houses. I just don't know about that stuff and I am not into that stuff and thus I don't have many male friends.

Not that I don't wish I did have more male friends, especially very attractive men that those of us who wish we were girls would want to be around!

So, most of my friends are women. And I spend time with them by going shopping, going to craft fairs, maybe going to a museum or flower show. And their husbands and boyfriends actually encourage this! They certainly do not want to spend four hours looking through a craft show when they could be out of the golf course! So they are happy that I fill in for them at the flower show!

And as Joy said in her comment, we are not a threat to real men. I spend time alone with women in their houses! I know that these men definitely realize that I would have no desire to get into their wives' panties unless I was modeling them for them!

And furthermore, my mistress has no reservations about me being around other women. I mean, come on, a shaved-smooth panty-wearing sissy with a tiny sissy clitty is going to come on to a real woman! Not in a million years!

I have written in an earlier post how when I am at a big gathering, family or otherwise, I always help the women set up and prepare the food and clean up, while the men sit there and talk about sports and drink beer. I just fit in better with the women actually not at all with the men.

How do you fit in with real women? What is your relationship with them?

Did you have a crush on a boy during high school?

2011-12-05T14:18:00.001-05:00

I looked through my collection of sexy men pics looking for the photo at right and I think it is pretty close for what I need for this post.

Anyway, starting in 7th grade when I was 13 and all through junior and senior high school, I had a very deep crush on a boy who looked like the hunk at right.

He was very popular and always was a class officer or head of some club and he was captain of the tennis team and I believe he was so good that he may have won the state championship.

He was in my exact same grade and we had many classes together. So I got to really like him and I have to say that I was really in love with him! And despite the fact that he was popular and I was not and he was so outgoing and I was shy and he was the big sports star and I was a sissy, he was always quite nice to me.

And that last fact may have made me hurt even more than if he was mean to me like some of the other boys. The fact that he was so nice to me made me love him even more and it really really hurt to know that we could never be together -- he liked girls. It hurt doubly when I would see him with the prettiest and most popular girls in school because I envied them so much and I knew that the only way I could ever have him was to be one of those pretty girls, which, of course, I was not.

Now, why would I search for a picture of a gorgeous naked hunk to illustrate this post? I had to see this boy for six years in the shower and locker room after phys ed classes in junior and senior high school. And he looked like the hunk above. He was built like him and he had a big gorgeous cock like that that I would keep trying to get a look at with being too obvious and getting caught at it.

I just wanted to hold him and kiss him and caress him all over and suck on his cock -- which I had already been doing with some other boys, by the way, as I have written about previously. But while I loved playing around with my sissy friend Timmy and those other boys, he was the one I really wanted to be with.

I don't know if he ever knew about what Timmy and I were doing with the other boys, but I would have to assume that he did because you know how rumors fly around a school. But he was always my good friend anyway. How I wish I would have had the opportunity to pleasure him like Timmy and I were doing to some of the other boys.

I don't think I ever saw him after high school. He went to college and then law school as far as I know. But I am still thinking about him.

So my question is: Did you have a crush on a boy during your school days? How did you deal with it? Were you fortunate enough to follow through on it or did it remain just a hard-to-live-with crush like mine?

* Please take part in the poll on this subject!

I would have loved ballet!

2011-12-04T15:25:00.001-05:00

When I was a young sissy I had girl friends who would take ballet lessons and put on recitals. Often, they would invite me to see them perform at the recitals and I would go.

I have to tell you that I was so envious of these girls! Oh to be one of them dressed like the girl at right and being out there prancing around and jumping around like the fairy that I was!

I already knew what it felt like to wear tights, because I had borrowed my sister's and then acquired some of my own. So I knew the feeling of the tights on my smooth legs just like my friends the ballerinas!

But to wear the tights as well as the tutu on a stage in front of everybody, well that would have been a dream come true! I don't know if nowadays sissy boys can dress up like the girl pictured and perform like them or if they would still have to play the male role. Anyone know anything about that?

I wouldn't want to be in the male role if I were in a ballet! I would think that a 12-year-old boy could be made to look like the girl pictured above, but I have never heard of that actually taking place. It's not fair!

So, I missed out on ballet or even dance lessons, but while the other boys were playing football I was always in the school chorus. And of course the mean boys would always call you a faggot or a sissy or a cunt because you were in the chorus and not tough enough to play football. I went to a junior and senior high where football was king and if you did not participate, or worse yet had no interest in it at all like me, well then you were considered a cunt. And the abuse was worse if you took dance lessons.

What are little girls made of?

2011-11-29T10:39:00.000-05:00

What are little boys made of?

Frogs and snails

And puppy-dogs' tails,

That's what little boys are made of.

What are little girls made of?

Sugar and spice

And everything nice,

That's what little girls are made of.

I was sugar and spice and everything nice!

Do you remember that nursery rhyme! It just popped into my head for some reason this morning. That is true with a lot of things I recall for this blog -- and I have to make myself a little note to make it a future blog entry.

Anyway, I don't really remember a whole lot before I was 8 years old and really pretty much nothing before I was 6, but I can see what I was like through looking at old photos. It is very very obvious in those photos that I was not made of frogs and snails and puppy dog tails. But it was certainly evident that I was made of sugar and spice and everything nice.

You may be wondering why I don't just run my photo of when I was that young, but I don't want to even go there for obvious reasons.

But when I see those photos with my older sister, we pretty much looked the same at that age. She's the one who went on to be one of the prettiest and most popular girls in school and I went on to being one of the school's biggest sissies.

In those early photos it was just so evident that I was destined to be a sissy. If there were other boys in the photos I just did not look like them. They looked like your typical little boys. If you would have put a wig on them and put them in a dress, they would have looked like a boy in a wig and a dress. If you did that to me, I would have looked like my sister. It was that obvious!

Has anyone else who looks in here noticed that about themselves, maybe through old photos or maybe something your mother later told you?

Pregnant T-girls in the future?

2011-11-22T15:04:00.000-05:00

Wish this were me!

Quite often -- and especially when I see a woman with child -- I think about how much I wish I could be pregnant like this girl pictured at right!

I mean it is more about what being a woman is about than even the sex act. Anyone can be screwed. T-girls get so much enjoyment from taking a real man up their sissy asses, but obviously we can't get pregnant like real girls who take men in their pretty pussies.

If only science and medicine could implant a womb in T-girls and a way for a man's seed to make a baby! Now, that would be a breakthrough, wouldn't it! Do you think that would be possible way off in the future! I would say probably! Heck, we transplant other organs and even faces nowadays. Why could a womb not be transplanted into a T-girl!

I would imagine that in the future when women are running the world as it should be, manly men will be used for manual labor and sports -- someday there will be no need for armies -- and providing the necessary sperm for babies. But women may be too busy running the world to have babies. And wombs will be implanted into sissies like us who will be satisfying the men sexually and having their babies!

Science fiction? Or do you think something like that is possible?

Living among pretty girls

2011-11-17T10:17:00.001-05:00

I wanted to be a pretty, popular girl like this!

As you know, growing up living among pretty girls was very difficult for a sissy. And, for me anyway, it remains difficult to this day.

But I want to talk about dealing with our plight in high school and college. I came across three types of girls:

1 -- Those who were just plain indifferent, snobbish, didn't want anything to do with you. Acted like you were invisible. But these "stuck up" girls treated everyone that way.

2 -- Those who just hated sissies like us. They would insult us, tell us to go away. I knew some that were pretty mean and would get their boyfriends to do mean things to me and other girlie boys. But again, these girls were mean to most people.

3 -- And then there were those that were sympathetic toward us. They liked having us around but did not treat us like regular boys. They treated us like their other girlfriends.

I knew girls who loved to be with me. They loved to do homework and study with me. Maybe go to the mall with me. Maybe meet at a dance -- where they would be scoping out the cute boys the whole time. I would go over to girls' houses and even go up to their bedroom. And their mothers were completely cool with this because they knew that I was completely harmless!

These same girls, although they were so nice to you, would never ever, not in a million years, go out on what might be even remotely considered a date with you. I did go to movies with them, but we paid our own way so it was not a date.

I had girl friends in high school and college who would do something with me during the day then go out on a date with a real boy in the evening. Then maybe the next day they would actually call me and tell me all about it. These girls would always be talking about boys with me and who was the cutest and what I thought about them and what I knew about them.

I had a girl friend who told me one night when I was at her house that she was tired and wanted to go to bed early. So I left. Then, as I was walking home a car drove by with a boy that I knew driving and she was in the passenger seat.

But I got used to stuff like that. Girls treated me like just another female friend. I knew a lot of girls in high school and college. But I never went out on any dates unless it was some group thing or maybe I met a girl somewhere just like two girls would do.

Added to all this was the fact that when I was in high school I had a sister there who was a year older -- I have mentioned her before -- and she was one of the prettiest and most popular girls in school. She was type of girl I wanted to be and I envied her so much. But I was always considered to be her sissy brother in most other kids' eyes.

So my point is, it was very hard to live among these pretty girls in high school and college and especially to have such a pretty and popular sister. I wanted to be these girls so much and it hurt so much. This was a very difficult time period to get through.

Can anyone else identify with this? From what I have read, I was your typical sissy, transgendered kid so I am pretty sure some of you went through this too and it would be nice to hear from you.

Shaving your girlie spot!

2011-11-10T17:53:00.000-05:00

I worked on my girlie V too!

This was me today in the picture at right! Well, I wish I was more like that anyway!

When I tuck, this is what you see!

I shave everything from the neck down except for my little V-shaped girlie patch of pubic hair above my sissy clitty! Do you like to do the same? Sometimes I will take it all off! The feeling of doing that after you have not done it for a while is so girlie! But most of the time I let it grow out to a girlie V!

If you do the same thing as I do, you know what I mean! I don't find shaving to be a chore because it is just one of the things to be more girlie. Like buying panties and other clothes. Like putting on makeup. It's just something that you do because real girls do it too!

But being tiny and limp like many of us are -- having what we like to call affectionately a "sissy clitty" -- it is quite natural to shave like a girl because we are so much closer to being girls than to being men. Don't you agree? I mean if I let my body hair grow out it would be so out of character for me. It would not match my inner self. It is just not going to happen. My inner self tells me that I have to present myself as girlie even though I will never be one of the lucky ones who may have their gender reassignment surgery.

But getting back on topic, shaving my body like a girl and shaving my sissy pubie area like a girl is something that at least makes me a little more like a girl and I take great delight in it. What about you?

Do you need to be pretty and popular?

2011-11-09T12:07:00.001-05:00

What would you give to have a shape like this girl, Playboy Playmate Irina Voronina, from 2001? If you are like me, then pretty much everything I would bet!

She is pretty much the perfect woman! It's funny. I have always wanted to be a girl, but I have always wanted to be the most beautiful girl, like Irina here.

The girls I envied in junior and senior high school were the prettiest girls in the school. The cheerleaders. The prom queens. The pretty dancers, etc. I did not want to be like an ordinary girl, I wanted to be like those prettiest, most popular girls.

In hindsight, that was pretty silly. I of course would have been happy being any type of girl because it is a feeling deep inside of us after all, isn't it? But we can dream, can't we! I wanted to be a girl like the Barbie and Tammy dolls I was playing with when I was an even younger sissy. I wanted to be like the girls on the Miss America show on TV. I wanted to be like this beauty Irina. I wanted to be like my sister, who just happened to be one of those prettiest and most popular girls in school. She is only a year older than me so I experienced her popularity (and this may be a subject of another post!)

Are you or were you like that? I know we have this deep down feeling of wanting to be a girl that we cannot shake. But did you also have that need to be a pretty and popular girl?

Paying homage to Marilyn!

2011-11-03T10:16:00.009-04:00

Marilyn Monroe in 1953!

Lani Todd in 2002!

I came across this photo at left of December 2002 Playmate Lani Todd doing her Marilyn Monroe pose. I love it!

She is almost right on! Her head tilt is not as much and Marilyn's left breast is seen more, but that is about it!

I believe I may have said before that after I first saw Marilyn's photo in Playboy -- and no, I did not see the original issue, it was many years later! -- I would try to pose like that. Well, I still do! Maybe if I had a blond wig I would try to take some photos of that attempt today! After all, with a digital camera you can kill off the poses that would not be right.

Ah Marilyn! I still enjoy watching her old movies on Turner Classic Movies. What I wouldn't have given to be like her! The Blond Bombshell! Very sad how she ended up.

But back to Lani Todd too! I love Playboy Playmates because they have been my idols since I was a young sissy who first discovered my dad's Playboy magazines. Thanks to the Internet I have been able to round up photos of Lani and all the other girls that I wished I could be over the years. I even love the older pics from the 50s and 60s that I had never even seen before.

But Lani sure does look like Marilyn Monroe, doesn't she! That is not a bad way to look. Look at that bummy on that girl! I sure wish I looked like that right at this moment!

Are you sad or happy for this boy?

2011-11-01T13:01:00.000-04:00

I just heard about a boy like these ones.

So, I heard from a relative that her relative's son, who is about 10 years old, is showing signs that he is effeminate, and his parents are somewhat concerned, don't know what to make of it and don't know what to do about it.

Apparently, not only is he showing that he is effeminate, he loves to play with his female cousins and not his male cousins so he can play with dolls with them and play dress-up and he even loves to have the girls put lipstick and makeup on him! Boy, that was deja-vu all over again for me!

I have seen this boy a few times here and there at various big family functions. I can't say that I am surprised by this revelation. He is small for his age and very shy and meek. I guess that fits the stereotype, although I was not especially any of those things.

So I'm thinking, am I sad for this boy or am I happy for this boy? What do you think?

I have to say that although it has been very difficult to grow up as a sissy and to be transgendered, it also has been very rewarding. I have been through confusing times, lonely times, depressing times and times when I was bullied. But because I am one of the lucky ones and I have been accepted by the people I care about the most, there have also been many happy times.

I have not been able to fulfill all my needs of being transgendered, but enough to at least be happy and not totally miserable. Sure, I wish that I were a real girl, with a pussy and breasts, and do all the the girl things. I think about that every day. But since that was not going to happen for me -- and probably you too -- then you make the most of what you can have.

If you are reading this, then you surely know that we had no choice in the matter, did we? I don't know what is going to happen to this boy, but that sure sounds like me when I was 10 years old. Was that you too? Are you sad for this boy or are you happy for him?

A real farmer's daughter!

2011-10-24T12:35:00.003-04:00

I think I ran into this girl!

I went into a farm supply store the other day. Now, I don't know a thing about farms or equipment or anything where you have to mix the oil with the gas! What is up with that anyway?

I did work some on a farm in high school, pretty much doing menial work like cleaning up poopy straw and putting down clean straw and feeding the animals. A relative got me the job, but being a sissy from the city I had to put up with abuse from most of the farm boys who worked there. But that's a story for another day.

Anyway, I went into this farm supply store to buy some bird seed. Feeding my feathered friends and watching them is one of my favorite things. I was checking out and talking to the lady clerk about these candles they were selling, because I could smell them. You know, the kind you don't even have to light, but you just put in the window and the heat from the sun creates the great smell!

This is the type of farm girl I would be!

In walks this tall blond girl wearing a flannel shirt, tight jeans and work boots. She had long blonde hair and was simply gorgeous. I mean I looked over at her and just froze, she was so pretty! She resembled the girl pictured above. All the people working at the store seemed to know her, so I gathered she was a real farm girl or horse owner or something.

Then I noticed what a strapping young lady she was! She looked very fit and strong, like she definitely could kick my sissy butt if I did not give into her! I wanted to hang around the store for a little bit but you can't be a creeper! It would not have surprised me though if she came over and asked if I needed help carrying my bird seed out to the car!

I, of course, am more suited to be a farm girl like the one pictured at left. And I bet you are too if you have read this far! My job on the farm or ranch would to be the blond girl's girlfriend and to take care of HER needs! I would dress like the girl at left, in contrast to the blond girl's jeans and boots and flannel.

In between the blond girl's chores, she would take me into the hay loft for some fun between two farm girls! And again, I certainly would be the girl at left and not the one above. Which one would you be!

Don't you adore this short dress!

2011-10-21T10:24:00.000-04:00

I just love this photo! It is actually the girl -- Cara, the Playmate -- from the undies photo again.

She is everything I wish I could be! I wish I could have gone to high school or college dressed like that! Wouldn't that have opened some eyes! But of course the high school would have sent you home in a second due to the dress length rule. You would have been way out of compliance! Well, and not to mention that you were not a real girl and not wearing your khakis and necktie!

This is a just a fantasy now, but if you were able to dress just like this in high school, do you think that at least some guys would have asked you out on a date even though you were not a complete girl? In a perfect world that would have been so nice, but this is not a perfect world, is it? Very far from it.

For sure, some guys would have you around to administer blow jobs even they would not be seen with you in public. I happen to know this from my own experience and that of my sissy friends going through junior and senior high school. Some boys were happy to get a blow job from you, then they treated you like crap or at the very least like they did not know you.

But it just really really sucks that we T-girls could not dress like that in school because, heck, girls wear slacks to school just like the boys. What's up with that!

I actually dressed up like Cara in my room at home and when I played house with my sissy friend
Timmy. My sister had short dresses like what Cara is wearing. Which, of course, I borrowed! I seem to recall that there was a time when girls in school got away with wearing very short dresses and skirts, then the school cracked down and came up with that darned dress code!

But I sure wish I could have gone to school like Cara here. Don't you?

What do you want from this blog?

2011-10-20T13:50:00.002-04:00

I posted a poll, as you can see, about where you would like this blog to be headed.

I have many memories and experiences and I have posted some of them. I have many thoughts and opinions about the way we are and I created this blog to relate them to you. I have many fantasies too, as I am sure you do too.

My favorite thing about the blog is getting responses from followers, because you cannot believe how great it is to know that there are T-girls out there going through this just like me.

As you know, it is not easy growing up different as we have and going through everyday life with that constant, nagging reminder that we wish we were girls. It has not been in my every thought since I was a young sissy, but it has been constant. The key thing is to not let it consume you and make you depressed. But it is always there: I have always wanted to be and still want to be a girl!

I love panties like this!

2011-10-19T01:04:00.001-04:00

Don't you just love panties like Cara here is wearing! A little string bikini! I have several pairs of panties like these and a lacy bra to match.

I love the see-through lace so you can see your little patch of girlie pubic hair! But I constantly wish that instead of my little sissy clitty beneath my pubies, I have a beautiful cunny like Cara.

And oh yes, I would love to have the beautiful titties and legs and everything else that she has!

At left is Cara, a Playboy Playmate, without her panties and in all her glory! I so wish that I could have been a girl like that! And taken and held by a strong man or dominant sexy woman!

It is hard wanting to be a girl

2011-10-16T15:16:00.001-04:00

Here is a girl I definitely wish I could be! Could you imagine looking like that! A sissy or a T-girl can only dream! I would have so much fun if I were built like that!

If you are reading this blog, then you know as well as I do how much it hurts inside to always be yearning to be something we will never be. I hate to be so negative but I have to say that it has been just so tough to have always wanted to be a girl, even if one not as gorgeous as Kylie here. But what the heck, I have always wanted to be one of the prettiest and sexiest girls! Starting back in junior and senior high school.

I have always said that I have the utmost respect and admiration for the T-girls who undergo gender reassignment surgery. They are so brave and nothing was going to stop them from becoming the girls that they knew they were.

The rest of us, those who have been unable to fulfill our greatest dream for one reason or another, well, I guess we can do things to smooth things over somewhat. We can take our hormones and have at least small titties. We can shave our bodies to be smooth like girls. We can dress up like girls. And we can act as girlie as possible. I have really tried to stay positive by doing those things, but of course it is not the same as being a girl like Kylie in real life.

Can anyone empathize with me? How do you deal with always having these yearnings to be a girl?

Amanda's pose and fond memories of Farrah

2011-10-13T02:42:00.002-04:00

A Faithful Follower of this blog made the keen observation that the photo of Amanda Paige at left was strikingly similar to the famous pose of Farrah Fawcett from back in the 70s on the right.

I remember that too -- and now I am dating myself here -- so I went looking for that photo and sure enough they were right! It was pretty close! The hair is really quite similar and the way the head is posed. I wonder if the photographer said, "Now, let's see that Farrah Fawcett pose."

Amanda was a Playmate in October of 2005. Farrah's pose was from the mid-70s, I believe. So it was something like 30 years later!

I had something with the Farrah pose on it. It was either a poster or a T-shirt. Maybe even one of each. Well, of course being a sissy and a girl-wanna-be, I was quite envious of her and also those other "Charlie's Angels": Kate Jackson and Jaclyn Smith.

A girl I wish I could be: Amanda Paige

2011-10-10T00:11:00.000-04:00

This is Amanda Paige. She was a Playboy Playmate of the Month. She is another perfect girl that I wish I could be!

When I look at the picture on the right, I envision that she is greeting her man -- or her girlfriend! -- that way at the door! Which is exactly what I would do if I were her!

And don't you just love that short little dress that she is wearing in the left photo! Such gorgeous legs! I wish I could find another photo of her in that dress! I love to wear short dresses like that because I think I have the legs for it! Even if I do say so myself!

I love this girl's undies!

2011-10-06T15:05:00.000-04:00

I love this bra and panty set! I wish I had it and I also wish that I filled it out as nice as this girl does!

I love all types of bras and panties, I guess. But I especially like the underwire bras because they push up my growing titties. The cut of the panties pictured here is my favorite style.

And the most important thing is I always have to match! The only way I will wear bras and panties that are not a set is for them to be all white or all black. You can't go wrong there. But other colors and designs simply don't match. And a sissy T-girl has to match, don't you think!

I love simple pleasures!

2011-10-03T21:06:00.000-04:00

This was me ... well I wish it was!

It doesn't take a lot to make me happy. I love the simple pleasures of life and I don't need to drive a fancy car and stuff like that.

For example, I spent the afternoon yesterday with my oldest sister. We talked and had dinner and I played with her dog. It was just great way to spend a very rainy day.

I made some purchases in the last couple of days that also made me happy. I bought some bikini panties and some stockings for use with a garter belt. Just some clothing, but it made me very happy!

Shaving can be such fun!

Now, here is the funniest thing: The other day I brought out a new razor to shave my legs -- and everything else of course -- and the feeling after using that new blade was just so delightful! I know that sounds pretty silly, but I just was so smooth and felt so girlie!

I sprayed on some body spray all over and put on some lip gloss. I put on a pink chemise and heels -- no undies -- and proceeded to do my housework and I had such a great time!

I thought about how some real women consider shaving their legs to be such a chore, while we T-girls consider it to be such a delight!

And how real women hate their monthly periods while we wish that we were fortunate enough to have a pussy so that we could have a period and have to go through what they do!

And how some women hate to do housework! Some of us T-girls love to do housework and we are very good at it. We would make excellent housewives and caregivers!

We all have our bad times and worries and hassles in life, don't we? But it is nice to a have some little things that make you happy along the way. What little things make you happy?

Don't you wish you were even smaller!

2011-09-25T14:32:00.000-04:00

Don't you just adore this girl! She is so pretty! She has nice boobies and sexy legs! And, oh yes, look at her cute little sissy clitty!

I bet her sissy clitty is about as long as my thumb -- to the first joint that is! And it looks as though there are a couple of peanuts underneath it! But you have to look very hard!

I wish I were that small! Now my sissy clitty is pretty small! But not even nearly as small as this gorgeous girl's!

She is so lucky! I envy her! Don't you?

And you know that the pretty little thing could not possibly work, which is even greater still! That leaves this girl with only one option as far as cocks since she does not really have one and that is to pleasure the huge ones of real men on a daily basis.

Of course I dream of being a real girl, but one of my fantasies is to be a girl like this one -- nearly a real girl except for that little nuisance down below! And I would be married to an extremely manly man and take care of his big gorgeous cock with a juicy head that I would suck twice a day and take his loads up my sissy behind! And I would carry on as his wife and no one would know are little secret!

Anybody else thing like me as far as actually wanting to be tiny? Or even tinier if you already are, like me?

Mother had big impression on me

2011-09-20T16:27:00.001-04:00

I saw this photo of Holly Gibbons, who is a Playboy cybergirl and her gorgeous breasts reminded me of my dear mother's.

When I was a young sissy and very impressionable, my mother did not cover up in the privacy of our upstairs where the bedrooms and bathroom were. She didn't hide when she was getting dressed and I was even allowed to come into the bathroom when she was in the tub.

So I saw her breasts quite frequently and they were ample, just like Holly's. Now, when was in grade school, my mother was in her 30s and quite pretty and I wanted to be like her and not my dad. And that included having breasts and not having a boy peetie and being able to dress up in things she wore like her slips and bras and panties and stockings. I love to wear sheer nighties and I got that from being envious of my mother too.

How much of an impression did your mother have on you as a young sissy?

Trying to remember my sissiness!

2011-09-16T14:09:00.000-04:00

Many of us started young like this!

Do you remember any of the first signs that you were a sissy, or girlie, or different?

I know that by the age of 12 I was dressing up and playing house with a sissy friend but things actually started even before that as far as my yearnings and some of the things that I did.

For instance, my mother still brings up the fact that as a young kid I always wanted to take my clothes off! She tells people that in front of me! I do remember that I would do that and wrap myself in a blanket like it was a dress. I remember that I had a robe that I liked to wear with nothing underneath instead of pajamas.

I know that I stuck to my mother as well as my aunts and other neighbor ladies who lived nearby. I know that I played dolls and "house" with my sisters instead of the other little boys. I really remember that my father wanted nothing to do with me. And neither did my uncles who were nearby.

In the early grades of school, I remember that my best friends were the girls and not the boys. The boys didn't include me. I remember that I would be picked nearly last for teams during recess. There were a number of us sissy or girlie boys, so sometimes one would get picked ever after me!

I remember -- and my mother reminds me of this too! -- that I used to get upset and cry a lot. Boys would be mean to me and I would cry like a girl.

So it is really no wonder that I ended up the way I did -- wanting to have breasts and a pussy and a nice girlie body. And always feeling submissive and wanting to go girlie things.

I am a prime example that we are born the way we are. I know I never sat there and thought it over and decided one day:

"Gee, I want to be girlie for the rest of my life and put up with all of the hassles that go along with it. Instead of being a normal boy like the other normal boys, I want to act like a pussy because I wish I had a pussy!"

Who in their right mind would make a decision to do that! I did not make any decisions, I did what came naturally, even at such a young age.

Do you remember the earliest signs that you were different?

Football season is here -- and cheerleaders!

2011-08-31T09:19:00.001-04:00

My idols are the cheerleaders, not the players!

Well, another football season is upon us and you know what that means! Cheerleaders!

Sure, I like watching the games. Even though I could never play football like the real boys growing up. I don't have a wide interest in football but I will watch the local teams on TV.

My interest always was in the cheerleaders! I can remember that ever since I started going to watch my local high school team play when I was about 10 years old that I was drawn more to the cheerleaders! They would come up close to the railing in front of the stands at the stadium and the girls and the sissy boys like me would gather there and cheer along with them.

What I always wanted to be!

When I see high school and college cheerleaders nowadays they look so young but when I was a young sissy, they looked so much more mature! And they were my idols! I wished so hard that I could be in their place! Their sweet faces, their smooth legs, their confidence, their uniforms -- those were all things that I wished I had.

And later, I envied them because the hottest boys would come around them and I knew they were making out with them, something I wished I could do!

I had mixed feelings in high school and college. There were a number of cheerleaders who were my friends. I of course valued their friendship because they wanted to be around a sissy like me, but it hurt so much that I could not be like them. Well, it was just more of the heartbreak that we have to live with as T-girls.

I amazed myself!

2011-08-19T02:49:00.000-04:00

I wish this were my mechanic!

I did an astounding thing the other day! Well at least for me anyway! I changed a headlight bulb in my car!

I was so afraid to do it too! I thought, first of all, I couldn't figure out how to do it. Then I figured I would mess something up! I did change an air filter one time though. Unscrewed the top and changed it and screwed it back on. And screwed it back on too.

So the man at the auto parts store told me to make sure I did not touch the glass part of the bulb. He didn't say what would happen, just that it would be bad. So I had to worry about that too!

Well, everything turned out find and the bulb even worked when I tested my work! I did get my hands really greasy while unhooking behind the bulb and hooking it back up again.

But I had this great feeling of accomplishment! I don't know anything about cars -- except how to put the gas in! Pretty much all the time I have to take my car somewhere or have someone I know come over and help me with something, even like changing a wiper blade.

But I know about cooking and baking and cleaning. I know about bras and panties and garter belts and hose! I know what a good outfit looks like! I know how to shave my legs properly and put on nail polish! Oh, and lipstick and makeup too! And well, just all kinds of girlie stuff!

The point is: I know about girlie things much more than I know about manly things! Pretty much always have! What about you? Do you know about and are able to do manly things? Or do you know more about sissy and girlie and womanly and feminine things and are able to do those things better?

Enjoying my mom's bridal lingerie

2011-08-14T13:38:00.002-04:00

Well, I have to confess this and I bet some of you out there probably did the same thing. If so, please respond and let us know!

When I was 12 or so, I found the box that held my mother's lingerie from her wedding day. Now, I had seen the stuff in the Penney's catalog and envied the girls in the pictures, so finding this stash was like finding gold for a young sissy, and I'm sure you know what I mean!

The wedding dress was there too, in a special container. So I did not dare touch that. Only the lingerie, which was just in a box that slid under my mom's bed. So at the first opportunity I went back to it and dressed up like the girls in the pictures I found and posted here.

What a delightful, exciting, confusing and scary time for a young sissy. I know at that point I did not understand the feelings that were going through me. Why was I not like the other boys? Why did I have feelings that I wanted to be like the girls instead? Why did I want to be like my mom and two older sisters and not my dad.

But anyway, back to the story at hand: I dressed up in my mother's wedding lingerie at every opportunity I had when the house was empty. I can't remember exactly what the items looked like, but similar to the outfits pictured here, there was the corset or bustier, with garters of course. And white stockings.

And then I got brave and started to take the lingerie out of the house and up to my friend Timmy's where we played dress-up together when his house was empty. Timmy would gather up his mom's lingerie items. We would dress up and parade around and cuddle and kiss and giggle!

Then we made sure everything got put back in its proper place! I have always wondered if my mom noticed that her wedding lingerie had been moved or was missing for a while and put back! My sisters knew I was getting into their stuff. I mean it wasn't like my mom didn't realize what a sissy I was.

I have my own wedding lingerie today. Not a gown though. That would be really nice! But I love my bustier with garters and white thigh highs and I have white shoes to match. Oh, and I have a bridal veil like in one the photos above and at right.

What a great memory! Did anyone else get into their mother's wedding lingerie like I did?

A constant reminder

2011-08-12T16:22:00.001-04:00

This is what my male relatives must think of me!

The other day I went to a family picnic. I was helping the women prepare the food and get the tables ready for the men, who were playing horseshoes and drinking beer.

At one point I was asked to carry over a pack of bottled water to put on ice in a cooler. It was a 35 pack in shrink wrap so it was pretty bulking and, to me at least, pretty heavy. One of the men, a cousin, saw me struggling with it and made a comment about how weak I must be. The other men all laughed. He then pinched my upper arm and remarked about what skinny arms I have. The men laughed again. He told me to get back over and help the girls and the men kept having some laughs at my expense.

Now, I know it is my place to be with the women and serving the men. It has always been that way. It is not playing horseshoes with the men and drinking beer and talking about sports and hunting.

About 15 minutes later, I was serving the men their food along with the women, when the same relative smacked me on the behind and blurted out "Good girl." The men, who were enjoying their day so far, got another laugh of that. I just went and got my food and sat down with the women.

I wanted to call him an ass. But he was right. I belonged with the women, serving the men. I certainly did not belong among the men, drinking with them and talking sports. I should be used to such treatment by now, but I guess you never get used to it.

The artwork is from http://www.prissys-sissies.com/freesissy.htm. It is very appropriate. That is how my male relatives evidently think of me. And they are right. I cannot dispute that. That's why I stayed around the women and served the men, because that is my proper place.

A ladyboy I wish I could be: Chompoo

2011-08-09T07:48:00.006-04:00

Chompoo has been one of my idols among the ladyboys! She is just so perfect!

Can't you just see how easy it must be for her to live as a woman and don't you just envy her so much!

Can't you just imagine how it must be when she is in bed with her strong, dominant man and giving him pleasure after pleasure, night after night!

I dream of being a ladyboy!

Chompoo is all ready for her man!

"Excuse me, ma'am"

2011-07-27T11:32:00.000-04:00

I had the occasion to be on the campus of a big university yesterday. I was dressed in short denim shorts and a tank top, sort of like the girls pictured here. I was also wearing flip-flops and I had my denim purse.Even the sunglasses. I got some of the usual looks, some stares, but no comments from anyone. The neat thing was that there were many real girls walking around pretty much like this girl wanna-be!

But the funny thing that I wanted to mention happened coming out of a restaurant. I paid and headed for the door and this young girl -- maybe 5 or 6 -- cut me off and I had to abruptly stop so I would not step on her. Her mother, seeing this, says "Say excuse me!" So the little girl says, "Excuse me, ma'am." The mother says, "I don't think that's a ma'am, say excuse me sir," The little girl responds again, "Excuse me, ma'am." The mother grabbed her by the arm and whispered something to her!

I laughed to myself on the way out to the car. But I could see the little girl's confusion. I had on short shorts like her mother. I had shaved legs like her mother. I had little titties showing, not like her mother's bigger ones but titties nonetheless. I had a purse like her mother. Oh, and I wear a woman's watch, but I bet she did not see that. But I was in boy mode from the neck up -- no wig or makeup -- so I can see why the little girl was confused.

Have you ever had an incident like that happen to you? That was not even the first time for me. But what you see these girls wearing in these pictures is pretty much all I wearing throughout the summer. And I have my denim purse that I really cannot do without. Anyone else like me out there?

Sissy or T-girl?

2011-07-25T11:36:00.001-04:00

Was this you at some point!

Billie wrote in a recent response that she considered herself a T-girl and not a sissy. Is there a difference? Are they one in the same?

A lot of times a sissy is considered to be a boy who just ACTS like a girl but still tries to be a real boy and just can't help it because he was born that way. And a lot of times a T-girl is considered to be a boy who wants to either BE a girl or carry on as a girl in dress and actions. Do you agree with me so far?

I would have to say I have been both. When I was very young, I did not know what it meant to be a T-girl. How could I; I have never been exposed to such a thing. I do remember what a sissy I was in grade school, but I never tried to act like a girl at that point. I was just weaker and meeker than the other boys at that point and that is all I remember. There were other sissies in school. Did they all later want to be girls or were they just sissy boys?

Starting around 6th or 7th grade though, I discovered that I envied girls, at first with the way they dressed in their pretty clothes. I really envied my sister, who is a year older than me. Conveniently, I had her clothes to borrow! I started "playing house" with another sissy, dressing up at every opportunity. Not long after two other boys joined us and we gave them sissy favors if you know what I mean. So now, what was I: sissy, T-girl, bi, gay? All of the above?

This went on for years and then I evolved into just being plain girlie and submissive, but to assertive women! So I have been all over the place I guess! What about you? Do you consider yourself to be a sissy or a T-girl or do you place yourself in both categories or some other one?

A serious note

2011-07-22T12:15:00.000-04:00

Every once in a while I think about this. I guess it had some effect on my life but I am not really sure.

When I was a young sissy, starting when I was maybe 11 or 12, I was allowed to walk across town from my neighborhood to the downtown shopping district. I was even allowed to do so by myself, which was pretty amazing considering all the bad things that might have happened. Most of the time you had a partner with you, but sometimes you had to meet somebody and went off on your own.

One night I was walking back home across this bridge and a man from the neighborhood was coming towards me. I knew this man and I knew where he lived. I would see him around all the time. When he said hello to me I thought nothing of it and he chatted me up a little bit. What we talked about I have long ago forgotten and when I started on my way he walked along with me and we kept talking about whatever. What was funny was at that point he had been walking in the other direction.

So he walked with me. I was still pretty far from home. I began to take my usual shortcut route through some back yards and he stayed with me. At one point he said let's stop for a little bit so we did. I remember sitting on the grass in someone's back yard and he sat right there with me. And close to me. I remember that he smelled of booze. And I remember that he touched me on the arms and legs. I was wearing my usual girlie clothes of short shorts and a tank top and flip flips with panties underneath. I probably had started to shave my legs about that time too.

What I have never been able to recall is why I stayed there sitting with him longer than I should have. About this same time I had been playing house with my sissy friend Timmy and there was at that time no doubt what a sissy I was. But I really had never had any thoughts of being around a man at that age. Never occurred to me. Timmy and I would dress up and prance around as sissies.

So I'm sitting there with this man and then we are lying in the grass and he caressed my arms and legs. Then he put his hand down my shorts and into my panties (well, probably my sister's) and started playing with me. I remember it all being surreal and not knowing what to do. This went on for what seemed like a long time but I bet it was 15 minutes. What got me out of there was he tried to pull down my shorts and panties. I panicked at that point and got out of there. remember saying something like my parents were probably out looking for me and would look about where we were.

I remember how I hustled home, almost ran and was pretty much in tears all the way. I thought about it all night and I was pretty upset. What if I ran into that man again? Should I tell on him? What if I tell on him and he gets mad? I just did not know what to do. Then after a number of days I remember feeling guilty about getting myself in that situation to begin with.

Over the next several months and year I kept thinking about it. And as I have written about before, at this same time Timmy and I were playing house and eventually invited some other boys to join us and we began giving them sissy favors. I'd keep thinking about this man and why I did not get out of there fast. And the more I thought about it, the more I realized this: I liked it! I was a sissy and I was born to be with guys and be nice to them. I began thinking and dreaming about being with that man and being his sissy and giving him sissy favors like Timmy and I were giving to our boyfriends. I wanted him to hold me and caress and kiss like we were headed that night and I abruptly ran away from. I quit having any thoughts of telling on that man. Time had passed anyway, but I no longer faulted him for anything. I was quite mixed up as you can probably understand as a fellow sissy.

I would go by that man's house and I found out he was married to a pretty lady. He was just drunk when he sat and walked with me, I figured. I never had any contact with him, ever. But I thought about him and I began to think about strong men in general at that point. I would eye up strong men at the pool changing room and think about being in their arms. Did that man do that to me? Probably not. I was born a sissy and he probably was the spark that really got me into thinking about men and I just happened to be at the right age to do so.

Well, there is a serious story for you, as best as I can remember. The funny thing is that every once in a while it pops into my head and maybe another long-lost detail comes back to me.

I posted it to see if maybe I am not alone. Did anyone else who looks in here have such an experience as a young sissy?

Spending time sunbathing like a girl!

2011-07-18T02:17:00.000-04:00

I'm still here. I just can't justify sitting at a computer messing around when I could be sunbathing around our pool. So I've pretty much just been checking my e-mails.

But speaking of sunbathing, I want to talk about how it was for me growing up alongside my sunbathing blond neighbor. She was about 10 years older than me, so when I was a 10-year-old sissy she was 20. And extremely blond and extremely beautiful and extremely built!

They had a pool in their back yard and she would sunbathe next to it. Whenever she had some privacy -- or at least thought she did -- off came at least her bikini top and quite often her bikini bottom as well.

How do I know this? Well, they had a privacy fence around their yard, but if I went to the third story of our house I could see into their pool area and see this beautiful blond neighbor sunbathing.

Was I being a creeper? I don't think so. I wasn't lusting after her -- I was envying her! I was just starting to realize that that was what I wanted to be like! I would fall asleep at night thinking about being like the neighbor girl! And these cute guys were always coming around to see her, including this very cute sailor who I had a crush on! And he was getting to touch what I was looking at! I wanted him to be touching me!

Anyway, I still think of this neighbor girl! I love to sunbathe nakey like she did, although my mistress lectures me about getting to much sun!

I wish I were in their place right now!

2011-06-16T12:12:00.000-04:00

FROM JESSICA'S TG CAPTIONS

I love this caption! I love all captions and stories about a so-called "Transformation Island." Of course I dream about being the T-girls who are sent there to become totally feminized and totally submissive to strong men -- the way it should be!

And of course I would be one of the feminized sissies at right! Too weak and unable to resist a strong man like the hunk pictured!

If I may add to the caption: You know that when those two fems are taken back to the compound from which they tried to escape they are going to be punished! A spanking at the very least! More likely a caning or whipping to send a strong message!

I wish I could be in their place! Especially with such nice bummies, so suitable for a spanking, a caning or a whipping. And then they will have to work very hard to get back into that manly man's favor! And how does a sissy fem do that! By offering up her mouth and bummy hole for a real man's pleasure!

Mmmmm! I wish I were in their place right now!

What were you called growing up?

2011-06-09T14:18:00.000-04:00


Sort of what we had to go through!

My friends called me the endearing Stevie growing up and still do today. Well, women call me that. I don't have many close male friends.

But the mean boys in school called me Stephanie and also they called me Beaver. It wasn't after the animal or even Beaver Cleaver from the old TV show. It was beaver because that is another name for a pussy, of course, and they would go around say that I had a pussy or beaver. The called me a pussy, but they called me Beaver by named.

My sissy friend Timmy they called Tammy among other names. So we were Stephanie and Tammy. I got used to it and in a goofy sort of way I didn't mind.

When I was 15 and 16 I worked on this farm. Some relatives worked there and one was a boss. My family felt it would be a good after-school and Saturday job. I was totally out of place! Farm work is hard and I was weak! But they found things for me to do that a sissy could do like gather the eggs, change the animals' water and feed them, and clean up duties. I certainly could not lift much!

And these farm boys were rough around the edges! And they were tough kids! They were going to be farmers and maybe auto mechanics or maybe go into the military. I was soft and gentle, an A student and oh yes I shaved my legs, although I wore work clothes on the farm to hide that fact. I was destined to work in an office, or ideally, run my own lingerie boutique!

Well you know what eventually happened. They teased and bullied me. The reason I am writing about this is because this older man gave me still another nickname: Suzie Q. The farm boys called me that around school. So I was then getting Stephanie, Beaver and Suzie Q in addition to having "sissy," "pussy" and "cunt" thrown my way.

They frustrated me so much that one time I went at one of the boys. I was crying and I remember that I tried to sort of hammer at him with my fists like you would beat on a door, because I did not know how to punch or fight obviously. Good thing one of my relatives broke it up or else I would have been beaten up! He told those guys to settle down, but the bullying still went on somewhat.

And of course they would go around saying "Blow me" all the time I was there. When I would try to talk to them, the respond would be "Blow me" or "Suck my dick." The funny thing was, if they would have been nice to me that's exactly what I WOULD have done!

But the whole experience did not turn out well. I worked mostly by myself and stuck to myself and tried to avoid those boys.And they teased my relatives for protecting the sissy.

Anyone have a story about how they were given a nickname while growing up a sissy? Or maybe you were bullied like me?

Fond memories of motorcycles!

2011-06-06T11:27:00.000-04:00

I loved holding on tight like this girl!

When I was a sissy in junior high school, age 13 to 15, there were these older guys in their 20s who lived in the neighborhood and they would come around on their motorcycles to show them off. The real girls loved to go for a ride and the older guys accommodated them gladly.

But these guys also let the sissy gurls go for a ride too! I was so lucky and so was my sissy friend. We'd be there with the real girls in our short shorts and tank tops and girlie sandals, our legs shaved just like the real girls!

When I close my eyes, I can still imagine climbing on the big bike and the guys turning around to tell me to hold on tight. And I would gladly hold on tight! The guys would usually be wearing something leather and I of course would be wearing something girlie! And the guys smelled to manly! So masculine! I smelled like the real girls! I loved being so close to them! Going for the ride was definitely secondary!

This is how I really wanted to ride!

But I would wrap my arms around the guys' waists and hold on tight! Oh, did I mention these were hot guys! When they took me back and it was time to unwrap my arms around them it was a big letdown. I did not want to let go! But then again, I had to take my turn and anticipate the next time that they might come around to give rides.

The funny thing was: they gave rides to the real girls and the two sissies, not any of the regular boys! But it was a great time. The hot weather and seeing all the guys around on their Harleys brought back that memory! Especially if there was a pretty feminine girl holding them tight!

Did any other sissy looking in here have such an experience?

There should be gay/transgender proms too!

2011-06-01T08:59:00.001-04:00

Photo found at massresistance.org

I found the photo at right in a post about transgender and gay proms. Here is the link: http://www.massresistance.org/docs/gen/09b/youth_pride/tranny_prom/dance/index.html

Check out the story on this issue

I say why not! What a wonderful idea! If it creates such a big deal at the school, well then don't have it at the school. Have it at some private club. Or maybe if one student's parents might have a big house, have it there.

Now, the only difference is I would have done my hair up nicer than the T-girl at right! Probably a nice wig since I don't have long hair! She needs some lipstick too, but nice gown though (as much as we can see.)

No, I would have worked really really hard to look more like the girl at left. I mean your senior prom would be a once-in-a-lifetime thing, so you want to make sure your hair or wig is nice, your makeup and lipstick are perfect, you are smelling sweet and you don't have one speck of body hair!

And don't you just love that dress and those shoes!

I wish I could have gone to a transgender or gay prom with a cute boy! Don't you!

And to be with others like yourself, people who would not be looking down at you!

Wouldn't it be great if your biggest problem of the night was that some T-girl wore the exact same gown as you! Or that someone was jealous of the boy you showed up with! Or if your lipstick got smeared because you were kissing while your date was holding you close on the dance floor! Wouldn't those be great problems to have! The same problems that a real girl might have at her prom!

And of course there would be your intimate after-prom party that would be quite memorable! Especially for your date, who would be on the receiving end of a nice slow blowjob to be sure!

Love leopard prints!

2011-05-27T10:36:00.000-04:00

This has always been a favorite design of mine -- along with polka dots! How great it would be to wear in public a gorgeous leopard print mini-dress like the one here!

Do you think the guys would be watching you walk down the sidewalk! Even if you were still a T-girl you can bet they would be!

Even better would be if you could fill that dress like this girl here! She's pretty much perfect and what we T-girls dream of!

I do have a leopard print bra and panty set. As well as leopard print pillow, blanket and comforter.

I think Newport News has leopard print dresses in their catalog and they are not to pricey (their shipping is high though!) I know they also sell leopard print swim suits. I buy just the bikini or thong bottom.

Anyone else like leopard prints? Or maybe you have some other favorite design?

Dancing with the Stars!

2011-05-25T14:48:00.002-04:00

Guess which dancer I want to be!

I was watching the show Tuesday night with a bunch of people who were rooting for Hines Ward. I don't know, watching Hines dance really didn't do anything for me. He is a handsome man though for sure! I know I could other things with him!

I was watching his partner, Kym Johnson. How great it would be to be a pretty, leggy girl like that! I mean her legs are just to die for! And to be able to dance like that! And be twirled and held close by handsome men!

I guess I have always wanted to be a pretty dancer like that. It would have been so neat if my parents would have put me in ballet class when I was growing up. And then some other dance classes where I could dance like a girl! They knew what a sissy I was. So I don't know why they didn't just do it. I did sing in the chorus all through school though.

Don't you want gorgeous legs like that!

But to be a leggy dancer! That is one of the things sissies dream of being growing up. In addition to being a cheerleader or maybe a majorette.

Did you ever want to be a leggy dancer like Kym Johnson too?

Wonderful period this week!

2011-05-18T13:10:00.003-04:00

Dispose of your tampon properly! (Photo found on scharlack.com)

Are you also having your sissy period this week? Isn't it such a delightful girlie experience! Ranks right up there with shaving your legs doesn't it!

I have been using my Playtex Gentle Glide tampons this week and also a Kotex maxipad! (I'm registered at the Kotex website, by the way!)

I think the best thing about going through a sissy period is knowing that if you are working in a setting where there are women, that you have a tampon string hanging from you just like they do! And it's even neater when you look at the pretty young women in your office and think that thought! That they will be going to change their tampon sometime soon and so will you!

I also love the purchasing experience: I go down the feminine care aisle at the store with my coupon for tampons or pads. I carefully study the products and prices and double-check my coupons so I get the best deal. I am such a great housewife! And usually there are others there with female minds and feminine bodies -- as well as actual real female body parts that I wish I had!

It is a thrill be among the tampon and maxipad buyers! If they even notice you, they are probably thinking you are buying them for your mistress! If they only knew you were buying them for a sissy gurl -- you! I may have mentioned here in a previous post that one time a couple of teenage girls snickered at me when I was picking out my purchase in the feminine products area!

Then you have to take the tampons or maxipads from your cart and put it on the checkout table and hand your coupons to the clerk! And usually there are real men watching you and perhaps wondering if that is a big sissy in front of them.! I wonder if the purse, the perfume, the nail polish and the girlie clothing are tipping them off as well!

So once again, please share your experiences with your period or when you make your purchase of your tampons or maxipads!

I wish I could have gone to my prom as a girl!

2011-05-14T02:46:00.000-04:00

But no girl would have been caught dead with me when there were real boys asking them to go. And going with a boy was out of the question back then and it is not even very common today, is it.?

No girls showed any interest in going to the prom with me so I did not entertain thoughts of asking one. I was pretty shy and sissies just plain did not ask girls out.

As you probably found out, they treated us like their girlfriends. I remember how several girls talked to me about the boys who asked them to the prom and how completely giddy they were. I was so envious!

I went over to the houses of a couple of girls to see their dresses and see them off to the prom with some other couples. Then I went home and I don't really remember what I did that evening.

I was reminded of this as I saw some couples entering a hotel I drove by for their prom.

How I wished I could have dressed up like the girl at right in a short purple dress like that! Wearing heels like that and showing off my shaved girlie legs to everyone! And to be in the arms of a handsome boy and dance with him and hold him close! And later kiss him and give him a nice blow job in appreciation of letting me be his girl!

Who knows. Maybe some day in the future sissies will be able to go as girls to their prom. Things are changing rapidly after all. I really wish that for sissies who will be following us! Even if I personally did not get to experience it.

When did you get to be girlie?

2011-05-05T13:39:00.000-04:00

I was sort of surprised that, according to the poll on this blog, that only 28 percent of us played dress-up with a sissy friend when we were growing up!

So I have to wonder: what or where was your outlet to be girlie and play dress-up? Were you able to dress up in your girlie clothes at home in your room? Did you have to hide until no one was home? Surely you dressed up somehow because, as you know, we all needed to do that!

As I wrote in a previous post, I was so fortunate to have a sissy friend to dress up with! And a place: an attic apartment in my girliefriend's house! And clothes that were my sister's! And lingerie that was his mother's! Such great times we had being girlie!

As you know, it was an ordeal growing up a sissy. Most of the other kids just didn't understand. Of course we could not hide the fact that we were sissies, but then again we could not go around dressed in girl's clothing or lingerie and high heels now could we!

So I have always looked back with great memories of how my sissy friend and I were able to play dress-up after school and on weekends my girliefriend's attic!

How did you fulfill your need to be girlie ???

I would practice this Marilyn Monroe pose!

2011-05-02T13:32:00.001-04:00

I guess this is her Playboy pose when she was the first Playmate. Correct me if I am wrong. But I do know it is one of the most famous poses ever!

Somehow I came across this photo when I was a young teen sissy! Countless times I would practice this pose! I'd look in the mirror to get my arms in the right position. And cross my feet the way she did. And hide the one eye. And I'd jut out my chest -- as if I had boobies like her! But suck the belly in!

I actually still try that pose once in a while!

Mirror, mirror on the wall!

2011-04-29T14:23:00.002-04:00

Don't you wish every night when you are in bed that you are beautiful woman! I have wished that ever since I was 12 or 13 years old.

Many nights it was my last thought before falling asleep and first thought in the morning. And those thoughts would occur to me all day!

Don't you wish that you get up some day and you go look in the mirror to brush your hair as usual and you see something miraculously and outstandingly different!

Don't you wish you pinch yourself on that beautiful behind and you find that you are not dreaming!

Funny item for women!

2011-04-28T11:29:00.000-04:00

I saw this funny item on website that I guess is for sale somewhere!

Obviously it is for women who for some odd reason are forced to stand up and pee at a men's urinal! I really hope I can find a photo of it being used!

Why would a woman want to stand at a urinal? I don't know! I guess if a toilet was really filthy they would want to stand over that. I know I would not sit down on a filthy, smelling toilet to pee!

I don't remember how I came across this item. I just thought it was funny!

Oh to be swept off your feet like a girl !

2011-04-26T14:43:00.001-04:00

Your construction worker boyfriend has been away for two weeks. You've been sending him sexy texts about how you are going to pleasure him with your mouth and sissy ass when you next see him.

He is on his way! You shave extra smooth all over and spray on a nice scent! You put on a sexy little outfit that he likes!

When he returns he is so filled with lust for you! He sweeps you off your feet and kisses you so passionately! He carries you inside, but you don't even make it to the bed! You tell him you want him so badly! You missed his cock so much! It's all you have thought about for 2 weeks! You get on your knees and his cock is quickly in its rightful place between your sissy lips! But you are making him so hot, he has to pound your sissy ass! So he pulls off your clothes and rams his man tool inside your sissy hole while you just seem to pull him inside of you! Lust consumes him and he pounds you hard and deep over and over until he grunts and screams and spurts a big stored-up load inside of you. He pulls out and you licks his cock and balls and tell him over and over I love you I love you I love you!

* I got that feeling just from looking at this photo! How does that photo make you feel?

A girl I wish I could be -- Ashley!

2011-04-20T12:21:00.000-04:00

I don't know the whole story about this girl, Ashley, but she did appear in Playboy. Maybe a Playmate! But girls, I sure do wish I looked like that! Don't you?

She is just so perfect and does not have silicone-injected titties. That's what I have always loved about Playboy, definitely my all-time favorite magazine! I bet it is not 100 percent, but the great majority of the girls are natural, unlike Penthouse, where they pretty much seem to have boosted boobies!

Ever since I was about 13 years old and first starting seeing Playboys, I have wanted to be like those girls!

And Playboy has such great photography. And they like to show whole bodies! The whole package! I mean I know I always wished I had a pussy but I have also always wished I had the whle girlie body as in sexy smooth legs and arms, beautiful behind, precious titties and a beautiful face -- oh just like Ashley here!

Tayla is a great and TINY T-girl!

2011-04-12T14:28:00.000-04:00

I have been a big fan of Tayla Dieckman for years! And for a girl who is not an Asian ladyboy she has such a cute little nubette! Not to mention she has great legs and titties and is so gorgeous! I'm sure any man would want to have her around to pleasure him!

I agree with someone who commented on the previous post that T-girls are more appealing with cockettes as opposed to having dicks as big as men's. What do you think? Do you agree?

I would think that T-girls would want to be as close to girls as possible. And if they do not have surgery to remove their unwanted cocks, then they would prefer that they are at least tiny! I would also think that T-girls that feel they were born in the wrong body would not want to even use their cocks, so it would be preferable to them -- if they are keeping it -- that they are tiny and limp like in the photo of Tayla directly above!

I don't think Tayla is a going to be screwing anything with that nubette, nor would she want to I must believe! She is pretty much 95 percent girl! Oh and how great that would be! I really do envy her beauty!

So what about it? Do you believe as I do that T-girls should have nubettes to be proper T-girls? Do you disagree and believe they should have manly cocks?

This T-girl found her proper role in life!

2011-04-07T11:37:00.000-04:00

I would have to think it was pretty much pre-determined how this T-girl's life was going to turn out. I mean with a nubbette like that -- which is pretty much like what I have -- she was never going to be able to go through life as a male.

She could only satisfy women with her tongue -- me again! -- so there was never any real possibility of trying to be a male. So it looks like nature took its course here and she is living in the role that she was made for!

Look at her beautiful face! And she looks so happy that she is living in the role she is suited for -- giving up her girlie body to real men with cocks 4 or 5 times bigger than her sissy clitty!

Could you imagine being like that and your man picks you up and carries you to the bed. He gets on top of you and kisses you and leaves suck and bite marks -- hickies! --on your neck while rubbing his masculine hands over your smooth girlie body! All the while he is telling you how he is going to fuck you hard and deep!

But you are so hot and want him so badly that you have to suck his big cock first so it becomes even bigger and harder for when he decides to take you. And you get on your knees and submit to him and he fills your sissiness with his man tool until you are in ecstasy and he groans and fills you with his precious love cream. You roll over and he collapses on you and you tell him over and over how much you love him so much.

Don't you think that scenario is something like what this T-girl lives? I would have to think so! She has found the best alternative to being born with a nubbette and not fated to be a real male! Oh to be so lucky!

Our mothers: A first impression and first envy!

2011-04-01T15:04:00.000-04:00

I don't remember a whole lot of stuff that happened to me before I was 8 or 9 years old. I don't believe it when someone says they knew they should have been a girl when they were 4 or 5 years old!

But, looking back now, I guess I can say there were signs that I was that way, but at that time I did not know what they meant.

But I can say that one thing that left an impression on me was that my mother liked to wear those see-through nightgowns that I guess were very popular at that time. Pictured in her nighty is Cindy Fuller, who was a Playmate in 1959. My mother was built like that and even looked like that and that is why I posted that picture.

So of course, getting to see very easily how my mother was built left a huge impression on me. I obviously could not explain what was going on with me, but I do remember how my mother wore those nightgowns and how you could see her big beautiful breasts. And of course there were other times when she would walk around naked from the bathroom to her bedroom or she might call me into her bedroom when was getting dressed.

So my point is, I saw my mother's breasts a lot and that is pretty much one of the few things that I remember at a very young age. And, being a momma's boy, I wanted to be like my mother in all ways! What she did and what she wore and of course what she looked like! I envied her in all ways and those breasts were a subject of wonder for me!

I stuck to my mother! I never wanted to be like my dad and I bet if you are reading this then you certainly understand what I am talking about!

So did your own mother leave any sort of impression on you?

I was a lot like Hayley Mills! Were you?

2011-03-29T12:00:00.000-04:00

You know, while I was thinking about Vanessa Hudgens and what young Hollywood types I would like to be, it popped into my head that I had those thoughts many years ago and they were constantly in my yearnings!

When I was growing up as a young sissy, there were all these Disney movies on TV and a young actress named Hayley Mills was in some of them. She was born in England but she became America's sweetheart. Her big movie hits including The Parent Trap and Pollyanna.

The thing that drew me to her was that she was cute and also the fact that she looked and acted like a tomboy. And as you know, there is not a whole lot of difference between a tomboy and a sissy. Both of our lives are blurred! We have a desire to be a different way!

But look at the photo at left. If you would have put me in that dress when I was 12 or 13 years old, I would have looked a lot like that. At some points in time I had long hair like that. And when the body hair started coming in, well, that's when I started shaving because I hated it!

And boy did I ever want to be in dresses like that! Good thing I had a caring sister who gave me some hand-me-downs!

So that's how I remember Hayley and those delightful movies that she made when she was a young girl! She left that impression on me. I would have made a great girl like that and I was so envious!

Vanessa Hudgens: A girl I wish I was like!

2011-03-24T14:23:00.000-04:00

I don't want to go too far about Vanessa Hudgens because who knows how young she was when she posted those nude pictures on the Internet. Let's just not go there. But look at these pics of her out in public in her short dresses.

I wish I could have grown up as a teen-age girl like that, don't you. Or at least have been able to live to the fullest as the sissy that I was!

How wonderful it would have been to go to parties with other boys and girls in a short little dress like these -- even as a sissy! And there would be boys there who actually liked the company of sissies and you would draw their attention!

As a teen sissy, of course I yearned to have a sweet pussy and titties, but -- barring a miracle -- that was not going to happen. So it hurt that I could not really go too far as far as living as a sissy. You know what I mean, don't you?

How nice it would have been if we could have dressed like this in public. I mean, heck, it's just clothes. Sissies and older T-girls should be allowed to wear their short dress and show off their shaved legs in public!

In the future, when women finally take control of this pathetic world and straighten it out, I'm sure sissies will be able live their lives as they wish because I predict they will be favored by the women in charge over the men, who will valued just for their labor and their spermies for humans to reproduce! (Although, if scientists ever figure out a way to reproduce, men will just be needed for labor!)

Classic Playmates were wonderful!

2011-03-22T11:50:00.000-04:00

I found a website that has Playboy Playmates from their beginning in 1953 with Marilyn Monroe up to 1967. I am having so much fun looking at these girls!

There was such a big difference between the girls who were Playmates back then and now. First of all, they were curvy and probably didn't weigh 100 pounds. They didn't have really skinny legs. They might have even had a little pudge like most women.

And they had big, beautiful and NATURAL breasts!

I post here as an example Playmate of the Month for September 1963 Victoria Valentino. I mean look at her! She could have modeled for the statue of Venus! Ever notice how in those statues from the ancient world the women were all curvy and not looking like they weighed 110 pounds?

And oh yes, my mother had a body like that when she was young. I was born when she was 28 so I probably remember her body starting when she was in her mid-30s. And you know how as young sissies we T-girls envied our moms first and foremost! She was the first girl that we wanted to be like!

I love my bras, don't you!

2011-03-14T11:04:00.000-04:00

I posted a poll about wearing bras and I hope you have cast your vote!

I have always loved my bras! I started by borrowing my sister's out of her drawer. Of course, these would have been bras for teenage girls as my sister was just a year older than me. Then, having been caught at it, the very best sister in the world gave me a couple of her hand-me-downs along with panties too! Thus began my own collection of bras and panties!

And I have really added to it: lacy bras, padded bras, underwire bras. But they have to match! I won't mix and match! Although a white bra goes with any panties I guess because you can't match up everything!

So I have been wearing bras pretty much from the start of my sissyhood! There were great times when my sissy friend Timmy and I got together for dressing up and I furnished my sister's bras and he furnished his mom's garter belt and stockings!

Mostly as a teen I wore my bras under sweat shirts and sweaters so as to not have more abuse heaped upon me than I was already getting for things like my shaved legs.

At work, I wear a camisole and panties and I can't wait to get into my bra at other times. One time at work my camisole strap was showing and a close dear girlfriend co-worker of mine kept clearing her throat. I gave a her a quizzical look and she pointed to my camisole strap which wasn't just showing nut showing a lot! Who knows who else saw my secret that day!

What are your bra-wearing experiences?

I wish I were Miss March!

2011-03-02T10:42:00.002-05:00

Have you seen Ashley Mattingly! Playboy's Miss March! So incredibly gorgeous and perfect!

Since my issue arrived a week ago I have been dreaming of being her every night! Wishing that I could wake up looking like that! Obviously she is just about as gorgeous as a girl could possible be!

And that's always been the sort of girl I wish I could be. I've never wished that I could be an ordinary girl. I have always wished I were a girl resembling a Playmate, a Penthouse Pet or a porn star!

I have been getting Playboy since I was in high school. And not for the articles! I wanted to see the girls and, starting back then, I would wish and dream and fantasize that I was like the Playmate of the Month! Not that I wanted to BE WITH HER. That I wanted to BE HER!

Girls wanted to be my friend (not girlfriend!)

2011-02-28T12:00:00.002-05:00


It would have been nice to play dress-up with the girls!

If you were like me growing up a sissy girl in public school, girls -- and I mean some of the prettiest and most popular girls in school -- wanted to be around you. They wanted to do things with you like do homework together or go to the mall together.

As I mentioned before, they would confide in you with their secrets when you talked and a lot of times that talk would take place right in their bedrooms. I remember girls' moms having no problem whatsoever if I went up to their high school daughters' bedrooms because these moms knew that I was not going to try anything and it was pretty much like their daughters just having a girlfriend up to their bedrooms.

Oh, and these moms, like my aunts in the neighborhood, were constantly telling how sweet and gentle I was to my mom and dad and that I was welcome to come over anytime. My mom appreciated that and my dad would get pissed.

So, if you were like me, these girls wanted to be around you like a girlfriend. Did they want to date you? No friggin way! You probably found that out also, didn't you? They might go to a movie with you, but it was not a date. They would go to the movie with real boys and make out with them during and after the movie.

Then maybe they would tell you about it the next day. All the juicy details! How the boy might have felt up the girl's tits and put his hand down her pants and diddled her while they were necking. How if they were especially close she gave him a blow job in the car. Many of you know exactly what I am talking about, don't you?

And my feelings would really be muddled. On one hand, I wanted to be the real boy with the girl. But actually, I envied the girl who was WITH the boy! In high school, I would give guys blowjobs, but of course I was not a girl, just the sissy faggot that those boys took advantage of to get some kicks when the real girls were not putting out for them.

I am not lamenting about that. That made me VERY VERY happy to pleasure those boys, even if they were taking advantage of me. As you know, what was tough was not being a REAL girl like those girls that you were friends with.

Being around those pretty girls a lot and seeing them in their undies and hearing their secrets and their experiences with the cute boys just made me want to be girl like them so much more. And of course you know that that hurt, because that was something that I could not have.

What are your thoughts and experiences?

Strong girls like Arianny make us look silly!

2011-02-15T13:43:00.001-05:00

Do you believe that girl with dumb bells! Can any of you T-girls or sissies out there lift 50 pounds with each arm!

I had two 40-pound bags of water softener salt that I had to carry in and lift up and pour into the brine tank. Even with the handy, convenient handle, I could not carry a 40-pound bag using each arm! I had to grab one at a time and even that was a struggle.

By the way, they used to sell that salt in just 80-pound bags. I could not even begin to deal with them. I had to get a boy at the hardware store to put it in my trunk! Then when I got home I had to rip open the bag in the trunk and scoop out some into a bucket and carry the bucketfuls into the basement until the bag was light enough to carry! Good thing they started putting the salt in 40-pound bags at least.

But I have to lift those 40-pound bags up about 4 feet to the top of the brine tank and rip the bag open where it was perforated and pour it into the tank. Again, what a struggle! This girl could have done it easily, I am sure! Too bad I did not have her around to rescue me like the boys at the hardware store!

But this girl's name is Arianny Celeste. I was not familiar with her, but I guess she is on the UFC (Ultimate Fighting) telecast and I believe three of these pictures ran in Playboy and one in Maxim, so she is a popular model. Oh, that's a no brainer!

But if she can use 50-pound dumb bells, then she can certainly kick my sissy butt and pin me down on the ground! But she is also so girlie! I lover her titties! And well, just everything else as well! I so wish that I could be like her, don't you!

I just adore her outfit in the photo up on top! Don't you just love it. Just look at those gorgeous legs! Don't you wish you could wear something like that around, even as a T-girl!

Is it your time of month!

2011-02-09T14:05:00.000-05:00

Is anyone else having a sissy period this week? I have been using Playtex Gentle Glide tampons in my girlie behind! It is so nice to at least emulate a girl, if you know what I mean!

And the feeling of fullness that it gives you all day is a great reminder of what girlies we are inside! I mean, what kind of real male uses a tampon! I would guess that it is not very many at all!

Then again we are not real males! We are maybe half male, half female. Or leading more toward female for some of us. Maybe males -- almost -- physically, but females -- almost -- mentally.

Still, it is not the same as having a real menstrual period, which I'm sure most of us sissy T-girls wish we could experience.

So I ask you, wouldn't you love to have a messy menstrual period every month if you could have a pussy like Alexa pictured above? Don't you just envy her for having body like that! Those perfect legs and those perky natural titties! I know I sure do!

Of course I know what you will answer or else you would not be reading this blog! But I would like for you to comment!

Repost on wanting to be a lesbian

2011-02-07T12:22:00.000-05:00

I would be willing to be that if you are reading this, you are probably not totally gay. You probably grew up bisexual like I did. You are probably actually submissive to everyone, like I have always been. You may have not embraced the gay lifestyle like I did not. And you probably actually have a mistress like I do. So I am reposting this entry from my other blog: T-Girls Who Wish They Were Lesbians:

When I was in college, I was good girlfriend to both girls and guys! Of course, the guys did not want to go steady with me -- they just wanted blowjobs!

The girls did not want to go steady with me either. But get this! A lot of the girls were like the guys -- they wanted oral sex!

When I was in college -- and this was true in high school too -- the girls just loved me! In college especially, they wanted to be my close friend. They wanted to do stuff with me. They would have me up in their dorm rooms or apartments. They would talk with me and tell me their secrets. Just like I was their girlfriend! Some even had steady boyfriends at the time and they would constantly talk to me about them.

But in those four years, did any girl actually want to date me or go steady with me? No way! As a sissy and not a real guy, they treated me like one of their girlfriends. I was of course still struggling with being so different, but I guess there were a lot of fringe benefits in being a sissy girlfriend.

For instance, the head cheerleader was my close friend. And through her, I hung out with some of the other hot cheerleaders!

And what was great was that these hot girls would want to have me around. And we became really close because of how I treated them! They would have me over to their room and we would talk -- like I said, sometimes about boys and even the girls' boyfriends -- and I would start by giving them a nice nakie massage.

This would lead to hugging and kissing. And I would lick their pussies until they were in great ecstasy! If they wanted it again, I would do it again! And then we would kiss and hug some more and then just cuddle nakie and talk! And that's how it would end, until we got together next time!

But would these girls date me or go steady with me? Like I said, no way! I did not even get any return oral, but that was OK with me. Most of the time I kept on my panties anyway. And they certainly did not want me to screw them, even if I was in to that, which I was not.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? I found a series of pictures that show what took place. I would have been like the girl with the streaks in her hair!

Marilyn Monroe left a huge impression on me!

2011-02-03T13:17:00.000-05:00

I can't remember exactly when I first saw the picture at right in a magazine. But it must have been in one of my dad's Playboys. And it must have been when I was about 12, which would have been a number of years after she died in 1962.

I bet that is the picture that Playboy has run more than any other. In fact, it still shows up to this day. I guess she was on the cover and naked inside the first issue of Playboy and that was in 1953, I think I found.

She had a glorious life and a sad life, obviously. What a waste, the way she died. I still love watching her movies, especially the musicals and comedies. They show up on American Movie Classics and Turner Classic Movies all the time.

But getting back to my original thought: I saw that picture when I was 12 or so and I wanted to be like that! I wanted to have that smooth gorgeous body! And those perky titties too! And as you know, those are very different thoughts for a 12-year-old boy to have! You know what I mean, don't you!

There are photos of Marilyn where she looks even more glamorous -- and with the platinum blond hair -- but of course this is the most famous pose. I would even try to pose like that! That's how silly I was!

But when I see that picture I think about how wonderful it would have been to be a blond bombshell like that!

How do you deal with not having a cunt?

2011-01-31T14:52:00.001-05:00

    I wish I had a cunt!
    I guess I have always wished I had a cunt!
    I realize that I did not wish for real that I had a cunt until I was a teen, but I am sure I did subconsciously when I was younger. I certainly knew that I was different than what a boy should be.
    I do know that when I first saw a picture of a cunt and saw my sisters and mother naked, I knew that is how I wanted to be! I didn’t actually see their cunts, but I saw that they did not have a penis. And I envied them so much for that!
    I found my dad’s girlie mags and I adored all the girls and their cunts!
And what they were doing with their cunts!
    I knew at one point that I would have to have a cunt to be happy. But that never happened. We can be sissies or trannies or whatever, but not having that cunt makes all the difference in the world, doesn’t it!
    The circumstances have to be right for when a T-girl acquires her cunt. And I have so much respect and envy for girls who have undergone GRS.
    Then there are the rest of us. I have gone through life somewhat depressed that I don’t have a cunt. And I am sure if you are reading this, then you have too. I say “somewhat depressed” -- and not “despondent” – because I have been fortunate enough (I guess) to have been able to deal with what was dealt me. But as you know, it is very hard to do that and at least try to be happy.
    Being able to be a sissy and be girlie is some consolation, but it is small consolation to not having the cunt we wish we all had.
    OK: When did you first realize that you wished you had a cunt? Not when you started dressing up exactly, but when you knew that you should have had a cunt and began to wish for one so badly?
    And how have you dealt with not having a cunt?
    Here’s you chance to profess your desire to have a cunt! Or rant about how you have lived still wishing for a cunt!

My popular sister

2011-01-24T12:07:00.001-05:00

Well I have mentioned my sister several times and about how I borrowed her panties and she ended up giving me various hand-me-down items so I would not touch her stuff any more!

But the bottom line was I was just so envious of her. I would have given anything to be her and at the very least I wanted to be more like her. She was very popular in junior and senior high school and I pretty much existed in her shadow. At various times she held one of the top spots on student council, was in various homecoming or prom courts, would be president of clubs such as the ski club, etc. Oh did I mention she was a cheerleader for a couple of years too.

She had a perfect body and long dark hair. I tried to find some pics that came close to what she looked like as a teen and as a cheerleader. And I think the two I posted here are pretty close.

Of course, my sister was not the only girl of that type that I envied. I was quite envious of all the cheerleaders and majorettes, the prom and homecoming queens. The girls who performed dances in our school musicals.

And while most boys wanted to get into their panties in the usually way, I wanted to get into their panties in the literal way. I mean I wanted to BE THEM and be in their panties!

So my question this week to followers would be this: Did you have a sister that you envied and wanted to be? Or maybe a girl in school or in your neighborhood? Someone who you wanted to be so badly that it just hurt because you knew that you could never be her? And it depressed you that you were born a sissy and not a real girl? And you could only strive to be girlie? You could only be a pussy, but not have a pussy?

If you are like me -- and many of you have told me that you are -- then you have a response to those questions!

Polka dot panties!

2011-01-20T13:30:00.001-05:00

Don't you just love them! I have a dozen or so pairs of polka dot panties and I was thinking about purchasing some more because I love them so much!

But when I was putting on my panties today after shaving smooth in the shower I thought back to when I was 12 years old or so and first started borrowing my sister's panties from her undie drawer. And yes of course these were polka dot panties! Funny how things from long ago stick in your head!

My sister, who was a year older, was so great! Of course she soon realized that I was borrowing her panties. It was not a secret what a sissy I was. She did tell me to knock it off, but she also surprised me by giving me a bunch of panties that she no longer wanted! She did not want me going through her stuff, and she was right. But that was my very first stash of undies! And there were some polka dot panties in what she gave me. Luckily we wore the same size as I was a year younger like I said. I was so lucky to have such a nice sister!

Please post your comments!

2011-01-19T02:43:00.000-05:00

In case you haven't noticed, I don't really like to post something every single day like on some blogs. I might post several times a week. I try to post thoughts that followers might be able to identify with and hopefully will comment on.

I know that a lot of us sissies and T-girls have led very similar lives. We started out the same and for the same reasons. Most of us had absent fathers, were shy, put on our sister's panties, were bad at or uninterested in boy things, etc, etc.

We have shared many of the same experiences with men and women and sex with one or the other or both along the way.

So I guess my point is this: This is your blog. I just start off a topic and hope that you can add to it. Because, like I said, probably almost all of you have the same feelings that I have.

So please continue to add your comments. And if you have not commented yet -- well why the heck not!

Remember that even if you comment on an older post, your comment will appear at the top of the list that is on the far right under Girlie Talk. If you have a longer story that you would like to post, send it to me in a e-mail, and I will consider it.

And, oh, by the way, wouldn't you want to look like Linda O'Neil, shown above! Probably more than any other girl that is who I would want to be! I have been an admirer for half a dozen years or so. She is pretty much perfect in my opinion. And I know this T-girl would love to be like that!

Things that we sissies know

2011-01-10T14:59:00.004-05:00

    Have you ever thought about some of the things we know because we are sissies that real males do not even begin to know!
    I mean besides giving blow jobs because gay guys who aren't sissies even know that!
    I mean things like this:

     Shaving your legs or whole body.
     Proper way to put on a bra.
     How to put on pantyhose.
     Making sure your bras and panties match and your stockings and shoes match.
     How to paint your finger nails and toe nails.
     The facts about estrogen.
     How to cook, bake, sew and do other womanly chores.
     Being especially excellent at orally pleasuring a pussy (many real men aren't!)
     How to put on makeup.
     The different types of sanitary napkins -- pads or panty liners!
     How to insert a tampon.
     How to wear a garter belt.

Are there any that you would like to add? Things that we sissies are so lucky to know?

Playing dress-up with a friend!

2011-01-07T20:27:00.002-05:00

Around when I was 12 or so, my sissy friend Timmy and I would play dress-up at his house -- sort of like those two girls at right!

He would supply items from his mother -- garter belt, stockings, slips, bras and panties! I would supply items from my sister -- bras, panties, pantyhose, short dresses!

We would dress up and prance around in front of the mirror and each other. And we would start tickling each other and that inevitably would end up with us kissing like a couple of silly girls!

Did any of you T-girls also have a sissy friend for dressing up like I had? Those were such wonderful times! And little did I know how that would just be the start of a wonder journey into sissyhood!

(I posted a poll on this subject, but silly me, I typed it wrong. I meant to say "Did you PLAY dress-up." But I think everyone will know what I meant.)

Wouldn't you love to carry a baby?

2011-01-03T15:54:00.001-05:00

I love this drawing! Could you imagine carrying around a baby like that! I have always been envious of pregnant women!

The fact they are carrying around a life like that and they bring it into the world is just so miraculous and so astounding. I regret that I am missing out on that.

And don't forget the fact that a man -- probably one that you are in love with -- has put his seed inside of you to start that whole process!

Just another reason that I have always wanted to be a girl!

Something I would dream about!

2010-12-31T11:39:00.000-05:00

There's something about that picture that really appeals to me! When I was young teen sissy, I would go to the pool and see hairy older men like this in the locker room. And those times really left an impression on me. I would go home and fantasize through the night and even dream about being in the arms of men like this.

In these thoughts I would be my weak sissy self. Shaved smooth of course and smelling like a girl. My man would be hairy and rugged -- and mature -- like the man pictured. And he would just smell so manly! That scent -- and I 'm sure you know what I am talking about! -- would be intoxicating to me. You know what I mean -- the armpit scent, the crotch scent!

I would want my smooth sissy body to be cuddled in his manly arms! I would kiss and lick his body! And I would just ask him over and over: "How can I please you?" In my dreams I would pleasure his manly cock over and over and over! Seeing him in pleasure would be my greatest pleasure!

When he needed a break from me sucking all of his precious juice out of him, I would bathe him and massage him and cook for him and just be his naked girl!

Please tell me some of you also had fantasies and dreams like this! (P.S.: I still have these thoughts, by the way!)

Things in common with girls!

2010-12-20T15:41:00.000-05:00

I have been looking at Playboy magazine since I was a young sissy of about 12 or 13. I would burn papers and take out the trash for the couple next store and I would rescue them from the trash! What a bonanza that was for me!

But I was always envious of those girls! I wanted so badly to have bodies like them. Beautiful smooth skin, precious titties! I have been dreaming of being like that even to this day of course!

So in the January issue they have the Playmate review. And Olivia Paige it says is "a sucker for all things pink (Hello Kitty!) and girlie cupcake-print sheets adorn her bed." And think, wait a sec, I am just like her! Especially the part about loving all things pink! I mean I have pink undies, pink robes, pink baby doll pjs, pink chemises, pink shoes, pink socks, pink sheets, pink blankets, pink spreads! Lots of pink things! (Well, I have lots of pastel things in general!)

So Olivia and I have something in common! I wish pussies and big breasts were something that we had in common! too!

Tried a tampon!

2010-12-19T02:44:00.000-05:00

Well, encouraged by some readers here and elsewhere, I tried a tampon for the first time the other day.

And I have to say it was great sissy experience!

I shaved nice and smooth and took a dab of lube and put it in my ass pussy and slid in the tampon!

I did my housework wearing just the tampon, the string hanging from my sissy ass pussy!

I always enjoy housework, but I enjoyed it much more that day because I was so much more girlie that day!

Of course, I could feel it inside me at all times!

What a great symbol of being a sissy!

Wouldn't you rather have a big beautiful cock!

2010-12-08T14:54:00.000-05:00

... or this?

Would you want this ...

Ok, so you were born with male parts. Now, if you are tiny and sissified like I am, wouldn't you love to have a big, beautiful cock like the one above! You would be the envy of all your friends and the guys in the shower room!

And the girls and T-girls and gay guys would want to get into your pants so they could worship that beautiful thing! And you would put it deep inside of them and pump your load in their pussies and asses and they would just love you for it!

You won't see too many cocks more gorgeous than the one pictured here! You'd give up all thoughts of being a girl if you could have that, wouldn't you?

... or this?

You would, wouldn't you? But I wouldn't! I have always dreamed of having a pretty pussy! I have wished so hard that even if I could have -- through a miracle -- the nicest most manly cock there ever was, I would not trade it for having a delicate pussy!

I would want to have the pussy to pleasure such a beautiful cock! What about you? Would you want that wonderful cock? Or would you be unswayed like me and want to have that precious pussy to pleasure it?

... or this?

Sissies make great babysitters!

2010-12-02T13:07:00.004-05:00

This is a sissy's dream, isn't it?

Starting when I was 13 and up until I graduated from high school, relatives and neighbors sought me out to babysit their kids -- even infants and toddlers.

I guess word got around how good I was with children. How I was patient with them. How I kept the toddlers entertained and how changing peed and poopy diapers did not bother me!

To help out the mother, I would even run the sweeper or wash any dishes in the sink and tidy up as well -- and the father would be obligated to give me a big tip!

Heck, I think I got almost as many babysitting jobs as my sister who was a year older! And when she couldn't make it, she would recommend me! But I have always been good with kids. I know it has to be the maternal instinct inside of me right next to that instinct that has always made me want to be a girl or a least to live a feminine life.

I guess I have always been sad that I could not have given birth and breastfed my babies like the mothers pictured here. How wonderful that would be! Look at their facial expressions! I really can't think of anything that can top that beside taking my man's seed deep in my pussy to start that whole pregnancy process in the first place! But that's another great thought!

I remember watching my mother breastfeed my younger brother when I was 8 and 9. I can't say that affected me at that age, but when I was 13 and started babysitting for an aunt one time she returned home and proceeded to open her blouse and my infant cousin suckled her right in front of me. I was so envious! Not of my cousin, my aunt! And I remember thinking how my aunt felt comfortable doing that in front of me.

(By the time I was 13, it was pretty much evident how much of fem I was, so my aunt must have thought that her breastfeeding in front of me wasn't going to traumatize me! After all, as I have written elsewhere, these same aunts would have me over to help them bake along with my female cousins and neighborhood girls.)

But what sissy would not want to have huge milk-engorged breasts with big nipples! And a baby to suckle on them!

Don't you wish you could breast feed!

2010-11-30T13:54:00.003-05:00

I love those captioned photos! Especially the ones where there is a curse involved but the transformed girl doesn't want the curse to end because it would be so nice to remain a girl!

This new girl loves breastfeeding so much and being a mommy so much that she does not want to turn back! That would be me, of course! Would that be you too?

Thanks to Daddy Feminization for the great photo and caption! It is a wonderful blog for sissies!Oh and it's now Boyfriend Feminization!

Pretty T-girls I wish I could be!

2010-11-19T11:30:00.001-05:00

I came across these pictures the other day at some ladyboy website! I just think those Asian ladyboys are so awesome! Just so beautiful!

I could definitely live with looking like any one of these three gorgeous girls!

And look at the legs on all of them! They have nicer legs than 90 percent of the women I work with!

But I have always been a leg girl! I have always considered that to be my best asset! Always had girlie legs -- not to mention skinny arms -- growing up!


I bet these three girls have no trouble whatsoever finding a strong man to pleasure!

Belated thanks to all the veterans!

2010-11-12T14:46:00.001-05:00

I thought about you yesterday on the actual Veterans Day. But I wanted to put something in writing here.

Men and women serving today are so special to me. I know for a fact that -- being a sissy all my life -- I never had a fraction of the courage needed to do what they do each and every day!

Being a secretary for an officer is probably the best I could have ever done. Or I would have been one of the Rosie the Riveter gals had I been living during World War II. How great it would have been to be one of those centerfolds who entertain the troops!

But to be an actual soldier? I know that I do not have it in me. I mean if you have read around this blog and feel like I do -- heck we want to the girls, after all. So I appreciate what our men and women in uniform do for us. They are doing it in place of us sissies and they are doing it to keep us safe and to preserve our nation, which, although not perfect, is a place where sissies can be sissies if they want to be! So God Bless Them All!

These two photos are the closest I could ever be as far as being a soldier. That's why I am so thankful that we have our brave and wonderful U.S. soldiers and sailors and airmen!

A T-girl period?

2010-11-08T11:20:00.003-05:00

Wouldn't it be great if T-girls like us could have a real period every month! I mean a lot of us love the idea and feel of wearing maxi pads and some said they use a tampon.But we do it because that is what real girls do and we want to be like real girls as much as possible! Don't we!

These sissies are making their monthly trip to the store!

But wouldn't it be great that, say, you took female hormones and the hormones triggered something inside of you that made your little sissy clitty leak. Not blood, but just a clear leak. And just enough that you would need feminine protection in your panties! And it would happen for one week every month. And that would be when you were on your T-girl period!

I personally would love it! Just think: You would have to excuse yourself when you are out to dinner on a heavy flow day to go and change your maxi pad! And of course the people you were with would know that that was the reason you had to excuse yourself!

Of course you would have to go to the store every single month to buy your new pack of maxi pads! And the young female clerk there would get to know you! Maybe she would pass on some Kotex coupons to you!

And you would have to tell your dates or partners how you are on your period! And on those occasions you would wear a feminine pad with a belt and of course still pleasure them with oral sex! After all, don't real girls when they are on their periods still pleasure their men with blow jobs!

Think of all the great possibilities of having a T-girl period! And how it would a big step closer to being like the real girl that we all want to be!

UPDATED 11-12-10: Added a poll below. Pick if you use a maxipad or tampon on a regular basis or if you think the idea is a really silly think to do!

Wanted to have sex as a girl!

2010-11-05T11:47:00.000-04:00

Take a guess where I wanted to be!

You know, when I say that the previous post was my teenage fantasy you have to remember that when I was 12 or 13 years old, I did not know what it meant to be "gay." Can you identify with that?

All I knew at that time was that I was not like the other boys and that I wanted to dress like the girls -- especially my two older sisters -- and do the things that girls did. When my sisters brought boyfriends around to our house, I was quite envious! Still, I did not know the definition of being gay -- or at that time what was more likely to be call "homo."

So when I say that I fantasized about being with strong men -- like the guy pictured previously as well as the one above -- it was not as a boy .... but as a girl or a sissy. Does that make any sense.? To this day, I am not into masculine gay sex. That is great for them though! But for me, one partner has to be feminine -- a real girl or T-girl -- and also completely submissive to the man..

My teenage fantasy! Was it yours too?

2010-11-04T03:09:00.001-04:00

Wouldn't you want to be in his strong arms!

This is the type of guy I started dreaming about as a young teen sissy!

At that time, I had girlie legs and skinny arms. I started to shave smooth when the body hair started to come in because I hated it! There was a sissy friend I played with and the boys who came around for BJs.

But I would see guys like Yank Davis here when I was in the shower room at the pool. And I would go home and lie in bed and think about them! I would think about my soft and smooth girlie body in his strong arms! My tiny soft sissy clitty rubbing against his hard manhood! And how I would caress him and kiss him all over. And I would worship his manhood, licking his big balls and taking his throbbing cock into my mouth!

My pleasure would come from how I pleasured my man! And I thought about how great it would be to never have to leave his strong arms! I needed a strong man like that to hold me and protect me!

This would be a great place to be!

2010-11-01T12:45:00.000-04:00

Face it girls! Wouldn't you want to be the life of this party? On your knees -- nakie, with your tiny limp clitty exposed -- pleasuring these gorgeous guys!

I have had this fantasy quite often! What about you? Just one time, I did do two guys at once. What a great time that was for me! And those two guys enjoyed it too! Swallowed both of them, of course!

Could you imagine doing these nine guys and swallowing all their precious loads! Just think: by the time you were finishing off the ninth guy, you would have already had eight loads in your belly! What a wonderful thought that is!

But I was wondering: Have any of you reading this ever even come close to this wonderful experience? I know, I am pretty lame because I have done only two at one time -- although I did have times when there were more than that number of guys in the room but just watching!

But lets us know here if you have ever done a gang blowjob! Or if at least that is one of your fantasies!

They sent me the wrong coupon!

2010-10-18T11:28:00.000-04:00

I got this coupon in the mail the other day! Well, at least someone out there thinks I'm a girl! My name was on the outside! I don't know where they got it, actually.

But really, they sent me the wrong coupon! I have never used tampons! I am more of a maxipad girl girl! I have been using maxipads ever since I "borrowed" my mom's as a young teen!

My mother used the belt and what they call "hospital pads." They have the extra long tabs that you clip onto the belt as you probably know. I was able to find one of those belts on eBay. And the pads are rare but found in an good drug store.

Sometimes I do my housework wearing only the belt and pad and high heels! (And believe me, I am tiny enough that I do not slip out from behind the pad!)

But usually I like a nice warm Kotex maxipad in panties! Hopefully they will send me some nice coupons!

Success story: Janny

2010-10-15T12:25:00.000-04:00

I found these before and after shots of Janny (Jannie?). She was so gorgeous on the left there with her sissy clitty! Don't you agree! So beautiful! Look at that body! I wish I looked like that right now!

And there she is with her pussy on the right! Could you just imagine being her right now! Having that precious pussy that we all want so much! I bet she is so happy that she is a girl now! And I can't help feeling so happy for her! And so envious! Don't you agree!

Tribute to a great T-girl: Camilla de Castro

2010-10-12T13:48:00.000-04:00

Camilla was so pretty and I remember envying her so much, until her life turned tragic.

She was 26 years old when she apparently committed suicide when she leaped from her 8th-story apartment. The account I read said drugs were involved. And also that she had announced her engagement to her boyfriend one month before. That is so extremely sad. What a waste.

I wonder what happened? I mean I know we T-girls are often much troubled. But she was just so beautiful and so many of us envied her. We would have traded place with her. It must have been the drugs, as reported.

But of course Camilla lives on in cyberspace and on the DVDs she made.This is just a little tribute to the a great girl. I hope she is the girl she wanted to be in the afterlife. Or maybe she will be re-incarnated as a girl, as many of us hope!

Do you remember Camilla? What are your thoughts of her?